"Assalamu alaikum"we said in unison
"Wa liakumusalam come in"
"I was about to come check up on you,but to my surprise your here"he said with a tired smile
"Yeah,you look tired-you sure you okay?"I asked worriedly.
"Nothing out of the ordinary Amaani,it wasn't long I came out of the theater"
"Ooh yeah...so how was it?"
"Alhamdulillah it was successful"
"Mash Allah"
"So what's up with you Amaani?"
"I really wanna talk to you about something very important"
"Go on,feel free"he said with a smile on his face.
"I would like to keep my medical information private from now hence forth"
"What do you mean by that Amaani?" Halima asked
"I don't want you to give anyone feedback about my medical information from now on"
"You mean your family members?"doctor Rayan asked.
"Yeah"
"Amaani but why?"Halima questioned
"Well Doctor you see,I don't want anyone of my family members worrying about me for nothing most especially my mum"
"I get your point Amaani but in this case they are the most important people in your life who need to know about your medical information more than anyone else...things might get pretty bad in the future-your triggers are growing bigger and your case is becoming more complicated-I have to tell them about all this-thanks for your foresight"
"I agree with you doctor"Halima added
"But doctor Rayan you need to understand pls,I really don't want to be a burden on their shoulder even though they are my parent-this is about my life too and I have all the say in it-I'm not sick I'll be perfectly fine inshallah"
"If things go pretty bad,I'll never be able to forgive myself,your parents trust me with this,with you,how can I just let them down-understand this at this point anything can go wrong-but we don't pray for that,you need them the most Amaani,so why do you want to hide your health info to them,I see no point in that,I'm sorry I can't help you Amaani"
"Please understand my point"I pleaded
"No Amaani enough now,you heard him,they need to know please get this Cx your the one taking it wrong here,if we help you then it's also like we cheated you"she stumped out of the room without adding a word.
"Halima please make her understand"
"Inshallah I'll talk to you later"
Halima's POV
I left doctor Rayyan's office to catch up with Amaani"
"Amaani you need to understand please"
"it's okay"
"Do you know when I woke up at the hospital I thought I was gonna see my parents next to me,I wished for it-i thought we were gonna be like a happy family...but when I opened my eyes I wanted to close them immediately,I miss him so badly-i miss my Dad.I still wished we were like before,i miss him calling me my little one,my princess- when and how did it happened?i have no idea.
"When I had my good moments and successes, he was there to congratulate me, share in my joy, and give me a high-five. I also had my lows and setbacks, and he was there too, to comfort me, lend me a sympathetic ear, wipe away my tears, and put me back on my feet. I will never forget this. Never. the fairy tales he told me after tucking me in bed , the lullabies he sang to me to help me fall asleep, the bear hugs and forehead kisses he so tenderly gave me...my heart still remembers them, all of them.
My father's love never places judgment on me,
his love comes unconditional and unselfishly.
For all the things he've done to show how much he care, always remains as a reminder that he will always be there. I'll never forget the affection he've shown in so many ways, faithful to me, as a father he have never missed a day. The way he look at me with that twinkle in his eye, no matter my situation he lets me know I'll be alright.He have taught me the difference between right and wrong,he taught me how to be a strong little princess.I'll always be grateful for him being there through my struggles and my strife, because of his encouragement,he taught me the meaning of life. All the lunches he packed for me,the endless homework he helped me with, the mess I steadily made in the house and which he cleaned over and over again—how would I have managed without him?I wouldn't have.he was all alone as a single parent,when ever I asked Dad where's mom?when is she gonna come back to us?he always looked up to me with a smile and then he places a soft kiss on my forehead,he then say my little princess let me tell you a story
"How can you see through me
When you never look my way?
How do you breathe freely
When I'm holding mine all day?
Sitting in confinement
In the center of a crowd,
Looking at the lines
That we keep drawing out.
Slowly they all wither,
And it becomes just you and I.
Slowly you come hither,
Just one last goodbye.
My fingers clench upon me
So they don't rush to find your hands.
I stay where I have been
Because my knees won't let me stand.
If I never say the words,
This moment may not end.
When you turn to walk away,
The pain is just too much.
The things that I would say
Just to feel your touch"
I always say Daddy it's beautiful,what does it mean?he'll look at me with a sad smile and say one day you will understand.growing up I always sang it as a song,I never knew it was the love story of my parents-it was a painful ending"
"I'm sorry Amaani"I said while giving her a side hug and she whispered slowly "don't be" i was about to talk when she shh me up.i walked her back to her room where all the girls were waiting impatiently and then I went back to doctor Rayyan's office and told him not to worry,he gave me some drugs and instructions which are to be followed,we went back to the room together they said their goodbye's and we left.
Amaani's POV
"After not agreeing to keep my medical information personal to my family members,I felt like having a-time-alone,deep in my thoughts Halima snapped me out of it,and I felt empty,I wanted no one but my Dad to be there with me alone,to have one of those special moments together-father-daughter time,i remembered all the special moments all the good perfect moments together we spent,I saw my little self and my dad running behind me to catch his little one,I cried inside of me,I felt empty-I felt a missing part of me was far lonely and crumbled,my life was a broken one and I felt like saying them out to the world,and luckily a listening ear was right beside me-I opened up to my best friend,she knew I was a broken piece inside.But she was always there during the good and bad times.