Padgett's POV
Everyone, listen up, Padgett Ryan, is my best friend and my sister, if anyone hurt her, they will have me to battle with and if you dare cross her part, you will get consume by my rage, I know you all don't want that, not even those that call themselves my girlfriend or fling will go unpunished
It's crazy as they all stared at me, as he pulled me into a hug in front of this crowd, I could hear some admiring me, wishing to be me while others curse at me.
I could barely eat during lunch as usual the guys would talk about their basketball game and Newton kept glancing at me silently I understood that he was just looking out for point to be able to get me into becoming his girlfriend, he uses the word fake but I am so afraid that, he had an interior motivate that is the reason, he asked for that, there are other girls, which means, he could pick from them while does it have to be me.
Then my thoughts drove back to Cassie, her words was tearing me apart, those words were the fact that no matter how I would look at it she was right, she got a chance to have a feeling of how it was to have him in her arms; to love him; caress him; kiss him; maybe even more, like what she said while I simply dream and dream and yet it’s not a reality; it doesn't happen, nothing happens my stupid unrequited love for him would get me nowhere yet I still love him; yet I can’t stop, I still keep hoping and wishing, it still hurts badly. I am freaking in love with him so much
After lunch it was simply classes and classes and more classes cameron seems to be over Cassie pretty fast, little did he know she left a scar in my heart as her words hit me pretty deep and frankly I couldn't wait to head home and sleep over the pain and hug my pillow while I cry out my heart.
I had to stick around and wait up for Cameron, since he warn me not to leave without him and mother had also mentioned it on the phone this morning when she called. I was thinking I am going to wait longer because those are what happened in my bad boy story, the best friend always have to wait while the bad boy grab his things or play with his fling.
Hey Creamy! I heard him say behind me
Surprisingly he was early, which means he didn't hit on any girl or he was actually sober about breaking up with Cassie which was even more weird but nevertheless he would save me of the pain of having to write down a girl’s number or watch him make out with girls
Creamy let’s go or did Cassie hurt you…”
She did nothing, I’m just tired that’s all
In that case then I know what would make you feel much much better”
Oh really and what could that be… I asked curiously
ICE CREAM… He said as I squealed
Cameron knew for a fact how much I simply loved ice cream they were my absolute favourite. He will treat me to then whenever I was mad at him back then or whenever he wanted to get something from me but never the less we would always come here together it was kinda like our place to just chill and all that, I smiled as I look at the place, it's been long but I still remember it.
Do you still remember it?
Of cause, if I forget everything, I will never forget anything about you. He stared at me then I move my gaze from him to the ice cream
Wow so mature… He joked as I licked my Popsicle
Shut up you… I said smacking him
Ouch… He groaned
Wow he’s so so so mature… I mocked
Anyways I need to ask you for a very big favor, creamy….He said as I dropped my Popsicle
And to think I thought this was free… I said then grimace at him. You can ask me anything but it should be sensible… I added grinning, he too smiled and pushed his hair backward.
How do you ask a girl out… He said as I choked on my snack. Sorry dear, sorry, I really didn't mean to choke you. He caress my hair as he said those words, I stared at him
What now… I nearly screamed
We had a deal remember I’ll try and make my next relationship last longer and you’ll date someone I was gonna try it with Cassie, even though I don't love her but since she was mean to you I can’t even dream of making it work with her or keep dating her
Fine, if it’s not Cassie then who… I said gulping down hard
There are two, Rhonda or Cathy, which do you prefer? He asked me, I look at him, try to fake a smile. I prefer myself, while would I pick someone, when I want myself to be the only woman, you could ever love.
Which did you prefer? I asked him back
Cathy….He said dropping the one word that made tears well up in my eyes once again, I want to break down, right there but the truth is, I can't, I must not let my feelings show.
Over the years I’ve had to go through alot being so close to him, hearing him say that he is in love with someone and now girls running around him, pretending like I don’t care but that didn't hurt as much as now, where I get to watch when his little flings would make out right in front of me simply to rile me or make me jealous which I am sure is going to worked perfectly because I would have to excuse myself just to break down in tears and then I’ll cry my eyes out every single freaking time still yet I couldn't get used to the hurt. it just seems to hurt more every time
I closed my eyes, try to compose myself, do I really have to do this, do I really have to go through this, should I just transfer to another school? Am I not going to die of pains soon?
At this moment there’s only one thing going through my mind and that’s how stupid I am if there’s an award for the most stupid person on planet earth it would be me
I’m really so very stupid
I’m stupid for believing that we actually had a chance together
I’m even more stupid for believing that he’ll actually look at me the way he looks at his flings even if it’s lust in his eyes at least he’ll look at me and find something interesting about me.
And I’m extremely stupid for thinking he’ll actually see me as more than just a friend
Padgett you’re really stupid you’re so stupid… I hear that sound echoed in my head, I really want to grabbed my head and make it stop but it's seem there is nothing, I could do.
Creamy, are you okay did I say something wrong? He asked with concern clearly written all over him, as I heard my head subconsciously, his voice made me realize that, I am now holding my head.
Of course not… I said sniffing then dropping my hands from my head
You look like you’re about to cry tell me what’s wrong… He said taking my hands
It’s nothing Cameron, I’m listening… I said carefully removing his hand as it would just hurt me even more
Are you sure I could tell you later if you’re feeling bad right now
No tell me now I should get used to it anyways
Used to what?
Cam, I have something to to also tell you? Maybe, I should just look what my heart say and tell him how I feel about him.
Really? He asked taking my hand, I let him hold it.
Yes! I can't...