Colleen's POV
"How are you?" Dr. Chin asked me again, I don't know if I am going to tell her how I feel about Jared with me. I didn't want him to worry but I was worried about my baby as well.
"I want to say that I am fine," I said and they both looked at me, concerned. "Lately, I had been feeling sad. It was the first time that I felt sorry for myself. Will it affect our baby?" I added as Jared hold my hand. He looked at me and I could feel that he was feeling sorry for me too. I didn't want to see his emotions anymore so I look away first to look at my doctor whom I was sure was sorry for me too.
"It was natural for you to feel that way," she said. I guess she knew how to comfort her patients. "Anyone in your shoes will feel like that, even Jared. But you have to be strong because your baby is observing your emotions as well. You have to feel happy so the baby would be able to relax."
"My wife," Jared called me so I look at him, "If you wanted to cry, just tell me. I am going to let you, so you feel a little relieved. Don't try to restrain it and justs let it go. I am going to be strong for you and our baby. I am going to be a husband you can rely on and a father that our baby could count on." he said, I smiled at him and squeezed his hand that was holding mine.
"Don't worry about me being sad or whatever, seeing you being fine was enough for me to feel better. We are going to get through this, together, with the help of both our mom's, sisters and families as well as Dr. Chin and Dr. Gerard. We are all here for you." he added,
"Thank you for being with me."
"You don't need to thank me, you are my wife and it was my responsibility to make you feel safe and secure. It was me who should be thankful because you accepted me. Thank you, my wife." he replied and my tears started to fall down. He wiped them off and we both looked at Dr. Chin who was now smiling.
"Now that you are fine already, and I can see it, I want to ask you if you want to know the baby's gender." Dr. Chin said, "While we are waiting for the result of your laboratory, we can do the ultrasound." she added so Jared and I nodded happily.
We agreed to find the baby's gender beforehand. I didn't want it at first but he said he didn't want to take the risk of surprising me so I just agreed. Dr. Chin asked me to lie down on the bed near the ultrasound machine and Jared helped me. He was always ready to give me a hand with everything and I was already used to it.
When he told me about asking Ingrid to look after the company while he was with me, I felt excited and happy at the same time. When he was at work, I wanted to go and visit him there because I missed him so much. Everything he does to me when we are together keeps flashing on my mind which makes missing him intensified.
"I had a talked with Dr. gerard after your last check-up and he was happy to tell me that you are doing great." Dr. Chin said as she prepared the machine. "He said that he was sure that your baby is going to be very healthy." she added while she lifted my shirt up to under my breast. She put a jelly thing on the head of the handle like a thing which I had no idea about then gently rubbed it on my stomach.
"Wow, I guess your baby is going to be good and kind. She made us see her immediately." Dr. Chin said, happily. She points at the monitor and explains everything that we see. "She's really a baby girl just like what you wanted." she told me and I was smiling from ear to ear.
"Super happy, my wife?" Jared asked and I nodded my head so fast that I almost felt dizzy but I didn't care. Just as I prayed for, He did give us the baby girl that I want.
"I think you will be very busy thinking about her name." Dr. Chin commented,
"We're going to call her Corrine," Jared said, "Because just like her mother, she's going to be the kindest and loving person anyone would meet." he added.
"I couldn't argue with that." Dr. Chin agreed.
I was full of joy when we left Dr. Chin's clinic, and even if Jared won't admit it, I'm sure that he was too. I can see it in his eyes so there's no point denying it. The smile on her face that reached his eyes was clear proof. We asked Dr. Gerard if it was fine if we stroll around the mall and buy something for our baby since we already know the gender.
Dr. Gerard gave it a go but he said to be careful and not to do so much and unnecessary movements. He talked to Jared and explained to him and reminded him to always observe me as we shop because I might feel too overwhelmed which is not good for me. Because of that, I promised myself that I am going to take care of myself so I won't affect the baby and Jared and the others will be less worried.
We went to the mall after my check up and because Ingrid likes to go shopping, she followed us to the department store when she found it out through Betty. She helped us choose the best baby dress and other baby's stuff. She was more excited than me and Jared and she was calling Mommy Claire as we roamed around. I could hear that Mommy Claire was very happy after Ingrid told her the baby's gender.
"You know what, we could have had a baby shower and reveal the baby's gender there, but you two are so excited to buy things for my pretty little niece." Ingrid said, while we were waiting for our food. We decided to eat our dinner in a restaurant before we went home.
"You are the most excited. I couldn't believe that you would be able to meet us in such a short time after you called us." Jared said, laughing and both my sister-in-law and I did too.
"I am really excited, I wonder how she will be able to make our home lively." Ingrid replied and I agreed with her. Although I didn't know whether I was still alive when our baby started to walk or even crawl, or say her first word, I could already imagine the mess she's going to make that would irritate her father. So I had to warn my husband to be patient with our little girl.
Our food was served and we started eating. I was definitely happy but worried at the same time. I look at both Ingrid and Jared who were very happy talking about how she's going to spoil our baby just like how she spoiled Jared who was denying that. It feels like everything was in slow motion, seeing my husband having a happy conversation with his sister about our daughter. I suddenly think, will I ever see him happy again, bragging about our little baby girl and family? I want to see him do that more, even if it was only with Ingrid.
I want more time to be happy with the people I love, I want to do more things with our daughter, I want to see our baby grow with my husband, I want more time with Jared and I want to live more.