If you say what you have in your heart, it will become your life. Help your mind to sort your thoughts and emotions and it will help you in life." [Riley]
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"Mom wanted to see Stuart and based on your last interaction with him I concluded it would be better if I don't let you know that we are going to meet him. I am sorry for it."
Her head hung in shame while her shoulders slouched downwards. Her hands clutched the hem of her shirt tightly.
Although he was never a person who could forgive people easily. Yet Looking at her pitiful appearance, he sighed and his heart was heavy so he spoke with a generous tone.
"It's okay. You are forgiven."
The myriads of her lies will heal with some time. But will my lie heal in some time too? Or will she never forgive me for it? Will she hear my explanation the way he did? Or she wouldn't even give me the chance to explain. The future was uncertain, but he did have her now to make the best of their memories together. He hoped his devotion for her will wash away his stains of lies.
Her eyes swept up to his in respect and a smile graced her lips.
"Thank you, Mindy." The words were uttered so softly that he wouldn't have heard them if they were not alone in the room. He didn't even get the chance to say something to her because Immediately after she leaped towards him and hugged him resulting in him tumbling down on the bed while a pillow remained between their bodies. Serving as a barrier to produce friction in their bodies. Christian inhaled a breath, her sweet scent filling his nostrils and his eyes filled with desire.
The room suddenly felt hot to him. Not the kind of summer got but the kind of rainy season got. When the temperature remains high and makes you feel breathe. Their eyes met and a blush adorned her cheeks as she noticed their ambiguous posture. While he remained immobile. His stubborn gaze made her uncomfortable and she tried to stand up but he didn't let her go as the next second his arm was around her waist.
"Do you want to say something else, Honey?" Christian inquire licking his lips thinking whether he should just kiss her or let her take the decision today.
She matched his seducing stare head-on. As if she was ready to be with him.
"Yes." Her arms went to his neck and His brown eyes widened in surprise.
'Is she going to kiss me?'
"I have loved Stuart since Childhood, we were best friends. But I have always loved him." Her eyes glazed with tears but there was a sad smile on her lips. Christian's thin lips pressed together, while his brows clouded in annoyance.
'This cruel woman wants to confess that she loves another man in front of me. Her husband.'
"I have confessed to him that I loved him today."
"You did. What?"
The anger swirled in his eyes, like a storm brewing.
"Hear me out first Mindy Please."
He stared at her unblinkingly. From this close posture, he could count her eyelashes, they were long and curved towards the ear side.
"I...I have always felt heavy knowing that I have always kept my feelings to myself In my twisted words
I had planned an entire wedding in my head with him. But he never knew, or he never cared enough. The day I wanted to propose to him was the day I lost him. In the beginning, I thought I wouldn't be able to live in a world where he wasn't there. But I did!"
Her eyes turned a little sad as she continued, her hands tightening on his neck as she gazed at him from the pillow that was placed on his chest.
"I thought I had lost the ability to love anyone else other than him over the past few years. Perhaps one part of me will always love him hopelessly." She stopped to take a deep breath to continue, her voice had already cracked in the middle.
Her black eyes were filled with sincerity and he didn't find the strength in himself to stop her from talking. Perhaps he wanted to get a clear idea of her emotions too. It was just an excuse that he was telling himself over and over again because he could feel his body growing tense with every word she spoke. He had already tightened his hold upon her waist to the extreme.
"I still cherish him. But 17 years of welling up in the tide of unrequited love that was never mine, to begin with, had made me realize the wondrous clarity of life. Maybe it wasn't just the issues of life that stimulated me to change my decision of loving a man all my life. Or perhaps it was all because of You and I am just using life as an excuse to not make you feel guilty about it. You came as a surprise to me, You held me in the nights of terror and fear. You protected me from the accident like I have got diamonds." Her tone changed from emotional to joking but Christian didn't laugh. He looked at her unblinkingly. Unbelievably.
'From when We need to talk, the line turned out to be a confession?'
He didn't want to blink so he kept looking at her stupidly. His brown eyes filled with confusion.
"I have confessed to Stuart Today to get it off my chest and I have decided to leave behind my unrequited love. You are turning my dream of a happy life into a true story Mendicant. And I have decided to give us a chance. Maybe we can make this marriage work? I am certain we can make this work honey what do you say?"
Her black ocean swelled with love, her voice thick with seduction. Or maybe it was his naughty mind playing tricks on him.
'Did she just propose to me to make this marriage real? Am I dreaming?' Christian found himself unable to say a word, so he nodded his head slowly. The female scent of breath gushed through his nose and his eyes widened as he realized she was kissing him.
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