Seated Leaning against the headboard, placing my Palm over my chest I inhaled and exhaled to catch some air.
"Good morning my girl,"he utters casually, he was seated on the floor where his hands are rested on the bed and his chin on his arm.
"Morning?,"I repeated in confusion. Switching on the lamb which is placed right next to my bed I looked at the clock. It was 3:00a.m .
"Morning,!"I scoffed as I glared at him.
"What are you....,"
"Doing here," he completed my sentence as he got up from the ground and sat on the bed in front of me.
Looking at me he continued" okay...let us be honest here. I have no idea why you hang up on me, ignore my calls and don't respond to my messages. You know what it's making me mad. I get fired up when I hear the voice say please try again later... I just hate it when you avoid me and I've already told you that,"moving forward he continues"I'm done with it Anna, you either give me an explanation of why the hell are avoiding me," he stated the word avoiding in a harsh tone as he moved further towards me where our faces were just inches away and me on the other hand, as usual I didn't know how the hell in earth to react.
Why is he being so mad at me
I could see a sense of anger in his eyes which frightens me to be honest.
Seriously those eyes can make you have a whole different idea of him.
Moving forward he whispers"what are you up to,?"he asked by looking deep into my eyes for an answer
I was just staring at him not knowing what to do. I couldn't move. All I could do was just listen to him.
There was a feeling in me telling me not to hurt him because I just.....never mind it's not gonna work
out.
Pushing my thoughts away I got up abruptly which made him stumble back. Standing up I walked forward to get away from him. From the feelings he is giving me. I just don't want to take him into my life.
Yes, I'm scared
I'm scared of HIM taking away Jackie from me as HE took my parents away. I am trying my best not to expose Amy to HIM now it has to be Jackie too.
"Stop f**king avoiding me,"he growled as he held my arm stern. Turning me around he pins to the wall holding my hands above my head.
"Don't test my patience,"he says furiously but the very next second he loosens his grip and looks at me.
I was just standing there , stationeried , it was so sudden I was blank.
Looking at me he cups my cheeks as he moves forward.
"I don't f*ck care of you had s*x with someone else. I know it was not your fault. I don't f*ck care of you consuming birth control pills. I just don't care about the dark clouds above you. All I need is to be a part of your life. To protect you from everything even from your past. I don't f*ck care that you cannot have s*x with me. All I need is you,"he moves closer"Just be next to you, listen to your stupid stories, see you yelling at me and to see you smile because of me."
My heart began to rise as a hot blush raised over my neck. I was just looking into his eyes and all I could see was
Love.
"Let's do things together, I wanna hold your hands forever , let's be old together,"his lips carved into a smile on his own comment"I just wanna marry you and be with you for the rest of my life. I wanna have a family with you. I don't care that you can't give birth, let's just adapt a child be their best parents and be the best couple,"his smile widens as he continued"you are unbelievable,"he whispered as he held my chin a little upwards and placed his lips over mine.
Everything went still. I couldn't feel anything. All I felt was like I was in a different world.
I haven't kissed gently before, it was only him.
Remembering our first kiss my cheeks began to heat up but he didn't notice it. All he did was to kiss me.
Our eyes closed as we felt each other.
He wound his hands around my waist and pulled me closer to his chest and after a long time of leisure we pulled apart. My cheeks heated up. I didn't maintain eye contact because I didn't want to.
Yes he makes me feel shy
Looking down I bit my lower lip out of nervousness.
"Hey,"he whispers.
I didn't dare to look up at him.
"Seems like Anna is blushing,"he comments cheekily which made me push him back.
"Who blushes," I bit back without even giving him a glimpse.
"Okay, you didn't,"he surrendered dramatically as he raised his arms up.
"Look up at me and I will surrender for sure,"he smirks.
Rubbing my hands against each other I tried to look up at him but I couldn't. My heart beat was rising and it was clearly to be heard due the silent atmosphere.
"Anyways, take your time my girl. Tomorrow I will be waiting for you in the park under that huge tree near the lake, you know where it is,"he says as he walks towards the door.
"Wait!," I stamped forward looking up at him "who is your girl?,"I asked as I raised my eyebrows and crossed my arms over my chest.
He bent a little down to my level so that his face was right in front of mine"you" he said softly which made my cheeks to heat up again as my eyes widened in horror.
I looked down immediately because he will continue to tease me
And to be honest I just hate my body.
It always reacts when I don't want it to...
It's so embarrassing.
"See you,"he stood straight and turned around to leave."By the way tomorrow don't forget and don't come with sneakers,"he chuckled.
I was just staring at his back because he didn't turn"Wear something special ,especially wear a heel to kinda match my height, it's really hard to bend for a long time to kiss,"he turns around to look at me while I stare back "I'm gonna propose you,"he winks and leaves in a blink of an eye leaving me with my own stupid thoughts and feelings.