=ASHER's POV=
She left.
I told her that I will follow Paula to fix something but when I returned she was gone. She leaves me again. But even if she did that, I was still ready to find her to be with. I will look for her this time and bring her back.
I don’t want to waste time. I don't want to lose her forever. Did she think I would trade her for Paula and our baby? Hell no! Now, that she promised she would come back to me when that Charles left her. I will never let her lose from my sight. Not now, not ever.
I will stand my baby to Paula, but it doesn’t mean I will leave Ashley. I can be a good father, but I can be a good husband to my wife. I knew I have a mistake for Paula because I used her feelings for me. I used her during the times when I was sad. And now that the woman who caused my destruction back, I just put her aside.
But, if I will chose her, I will lie to myself. Because it’s not her I need but Ashley. I maybe had a child on her, but it doesn't mean I will stay with her.
I may be a stupid asshole. Because I was willing to trade everything even my child to Paula for Ashley even she was able to trade me for someone else.
For fuck sake. I love her. Is it my fault if I loved her like this?
Paula told me with many curses. Even hurtful words she said. I can't blame her, she was hurt when I said I will not leave Ashley. She was there with me when I need someone. And now that Ashley is back, it’s easy for me to leave her without considering her feelings.
But God knows, I tried to love her, I tried but I failed. I look at her as a woman who was always there for me. A woman who can do everything and give me all I need. But no I still can’t find myself with her in the future. I always see myself with Ashley.
After I talked to Paula I came to Ashley's house to check if she was there. But no traces that she's been there. Nothing, so I decided to roam anywhere and just in case I see her. I will not let him disappear again this time. I'd rather die than lose her to me again because I know I can't take it anymore.
I tried to call her, but her phone was off.
Where's she is?
Where's my wife?
Where did she go and why did she leave me, again?
But I know there is no answer even if I keep asking myself. I know she has her own reason why she left. Maybe because of me or maybe something came up. Something important. To calm down myself I thought there might be an emergency with Charles so she left. Maybe not because of Pau and the baby.
I took my phone and tried to call Agatha, but she didn't answer either same as Hailey. I stopped the car and park and dialed Agatha's number again. But she rejected my call. I sighed. I roam around the area but I can't find any trace.
The sun is about to come so I decided to go home to check if Agatha was there but still she didn't go home. Is she hiding something? Is she with Ashley or is this a coincidence? I just took a shower and changed then left.
I went to Ashley's home if she's there but no one answered my knock. I decided to hang out near her house so I would know if she would come home now. I took a nap inside the car to wait for her to arrive.
Every sound of the car wakes me up. But I was always disappointed when I saw that the car was unfamiliar to me and even more that Ashley was not one of the riders. I didn't leave the place. I will not leave here until I see her. As long as I don’t get her back.
It's already evening when I saw Eugene's car stop. I may not be with them all the time but I know his car.
So, she and Eugene are together?
The last time she left me it is because of Eugene also. Are they hiding something in me? I doubt that they have a relationship. But, what's with them? What are they up on something?
I didn't go down because I didn't want her to see me and maybe Eugene and I would leave again. But to my surprised, I saw Hailey also. My forehead furrowed when I saw the three of them. Why are they together and where did they go?
Why did Ashley leave me to join them?
So, Hailey knows where she is and what is happening to her and so does Eugene? Well, at least I am a little bit ok because Eugene and she weren't the only ones together.
Ashley went down but I saw the three of them talking while Ley's window is open. I could see the concern in Eugene's look but Ashley just smiled.
What are they talking about and why does Eugene face look worried while looking at Ashley? I know it's a sin to wish something bad. But I am hoping right now that something happened to that Charles. There I can say that Ashley is already mine.
When Ley and Eugene left, I didn't go down immediately. I waited for a while then started the car near the gate of Ashley's house. When I came down, I immediately heard her shout as if she was scared.
"Stop!" I turned off the car and quickly got inside. I am afraid that maybe someone else is there and something happened to her. I was just at the door of the house when she shouted again.
"Stop!"
When I went inside I saw Ashley covered her ears. She suddenly looked at me. She was alone and she was suddenly scared when she saw me. I pity her. She is always afraid of me. I am always the cause of her fear. But this time I saw a different fear in her eyes. Maybe because she remembers what I did to her the last time she left me and go with Eugene.
"Kranky?" I am frowning because of what she said. She calls me someone's name and she said Kranky? Her eyes were covered with more fears while looking at me.
Who is Kranky?
"Get out!" she shouted at me and was even more frightened. "GO!" Who exactly is that man and why does Ashley seem so scared of him?
"Ashley," I called her name and immediately approached.
"What else do you need?"
"Ashley, calm down," I muttered trying to comfort her.
"Don't come any closer!" she shouted again and was even more frightened.
What's going on with her? Why does she seem out of her mind? Why doesn't she seem she didn't know me? Why does she think of me as someone else?
Ley and Eugene entered quickly.
"What happened?" they both asked.
"I should be the one to ask that. What's going on with my wife, Ley? Do you know something that I didn't know?" I asked them.
"This is not the right time to answer your question. Convince her to bring you to the hospital," Ley replied to me.
I looked at Ashley who was now changing. She rolls her eyes and not knowing what to do. Something wrong with her. She looks insane. But why? Is this because of what I did to her? Is this the result of the way I abused her?
"Ashley," I called her name again. She looked around. There is something on the way she looks, the way she glares.
Hell no, what's wrong with her? Why she's acting like this? What happened to my wife?
We were all surprised when she reached for the side mirror and then broke it. She pointed her neck at the piece of glass. I was so nervous about what she could do. She's not ok and she can hurt herself. My feet can't move because of fear. I'm afraid of what she can do to herself especially when she's not on her own.
"I will not let you hurt me again. I have already suffered from the cruelty you did to me. So I will not let you rape me and abuse me!" What is Ashley saying?
I looked at Ley and Eugene.
What does Ashley mean by that?
What's going on with my wife?
What is she going through and who is Charles?
Who is the Kranky he mentioned?
I heard Ashley's weak laugh so we looked at her again. She took the mirror and just kept on laughing. Laughter as if out of self. While rubbing her head.
"Ashley," I called to her but she just kept rubbing his head. Until she stopped laughing and sat down to one side.
"Ashley!" I shouted to get her attention once I approached her and shook her. "Ashley, Ashley," but she just stared blankly at me. There isn’t any emotion. She just stared at me and seemed to see nothing.
I glanced at a bottle of medicine next to her and immediately picked it up. Sedative? How did she have it?
The sedative is prescribed to those suffering from stress or depression. She can take it once a day or depending on the doctor's advice. But if you drink it all at once you can end up with psychosis. Kinds of depression that you see images or hear a voice depending on the negative beliefs of the drinker’s mind.
"Why does she have this?" I asked Ley.
"I don't know what that is,"
I had to take her home for treatment.
"I know what it is, and what it is for. I'll bring her to my house. I know how to calm her." Then I made him "You owe me an explanation, Ley, both of you."
I want to know what really happened to her. Since I see her now it looks like I made a mistake that I immediately got angry with her. There is something wrong with everything I believe because my wife seems to be going through something she doesn't want to tell me. And now I need to know what is that.