Final chapter
Nancy's POV:
(Before the surgery)
"Nan! I'm here. You shouldn't worry about anything. You know I love you, don't you? " He holds my hands in his as he gently caresses them.
Me, sleeping in the bed, smile brightly as I look up to his face. His face creases as he looks at me. There isn't a pity in his eyes. There is only the love, care and honest commitment in his eyes.
"Thank you! Thank you for everything but will you let me go now," I say and he smiles.
"Yes!" He says and the ward boys take me towards the surgery room.
I look around as the bed moves inside the horrible and scary surgery room. I have never been in the surgery room in my whole life.
I hated it. I completely hated the surgery room after I lost my mother with the same disease and look at the funniest and most hilarious part of life! I have to go through the same process one more time and I couldn't stop it.
"You ready?" A doctor asks me as he smiles. He assures if I am okay.
I nod my head.
And then he injects anaesthesia in me and slowly I get to sleep.
And the thing that I remember at the last moment before I close my eyes is him.
Zion!
I see him standing some metres away from me smiling brightly as I walk to him in white gown.
Yeah! That's where we exchanged the ring and exchanges our vows.
Sometimes I think I must be the luckiest woman to get the world's best husband and I feel so much proud of that.
It's exactly almost a month after our wedding and that scene, the moment I became his and he became mine is the most precious moment that is coming in front of my eyes and I'm sure this scene will come till the last of my breath.
And slowly my visions get blurred and my conscious mind starts to become dull. And here I am going under knives and needles to cut off the womanhood I have. And still happy after that.
**Six months later**
"What are you writing, Nan?" Zion calls me.
"Nothing just some daily journal," I answer.
"Really? Let me seem them," he tries to take it away from me but I am quick to hide it away from him.
"You cannot read other people's secret Zion," I say.
"Really? But I am not the other people . I am your husband," he says and I smile.
"You're right but I can't allow even you to see it," I say.
"Why?" He mumbles.
"Just! Here's something you shouldn't see," I say.
"I shouldn't see? Don't tell me you have written some porn of something over there? It's fine Nancy. I can always read those stuffs and you know better than anyone that I am the first one to see you under your skirt so, it's fine for me," he says.
"God damn! You're such a perverted husband," I roll my eyes and try to walk away but he grabs me quickly and pulls me behind against his wide chest and grabs the diary in a quick motion.
"Hey! Hey!" Before even I could say anything he steals the diary away from me and sits in the chair some steps behind.
"Statue," he shouts and I freeze at that same moment.
Okay! We had that silly game since we started dating. So, whenever he would say statue to me, I would just freeze at that moment and won't move until he tells me 'move'.
"Arghhh... Just don't read that diary Zion," I say but he puts his index finger on his lips and gestures me to keep silence.
I don't want him to read it. God! I really don't want him to read it.
Specially last some pages.
But to my utter disappointment, he turns the page, THE LAST PAGE, which I never want him to see and he lifts his eyes to me.
He looks at me with question filled eyes and I couldn't help but tear down as he looks at me.
"Don't look at me like that. It's the truth," I say.
"You mean you're pregnant?" he raises his brows.
Zion never liked kids. He always hated them and I didn't know how he was going to react on this matter. I was afraid to tell him about all this matter and that is why I wanted him to tell on some good day about all of this.
"Well! How could you hide this from me?" He says without any expression on his face. I can't read his face. I just can't read his face.
I don't know whether he is happy or whether he isn't.
"I... I thought you...," but before I could finish my sentence I get a warm and quick hug from him. He gently caresses my back and my hairs.
"I'm so happy for us. Thank you so much Nan! Thank you so much for giving such a huge happiness to me," he says as he tightly hugs me.
Hearing him say that makes ms so much happy. Since the day, I knew him I remember he never liked the kids. But when I notice him being happy, it makes me so much glee that I almost was crying like hell.
Being mother is a dream for me. I have always loved the kids and they make me so much happy. I was glad when I had Victor as my sibling. I was so much happy then, that I almost ran all over the community to express my happiness. But I was afraid he wouldn't like that fact.
But it's all good now.
He breaks the hug and kneels down in front of me and puts his ear on my stomach.
"Can you hear me?" he says and I laugh out loud.
"Zion, it hasn't developed full," I say with a laugh and he stands up Ans scratches the back of his nape.
"Oops! But I'm eagerly waiting to hold you little one," he says as he grabs me on my hip and raises me in air in happiness.
I become so much happy.
This is indeed beautiful. Everything except the one fact that I might not be the mother that my child actually could get.
I would be a mother who couldn't even breast-feed her child. I might not be able to give my child the nutrition that she requires. I will have to depend on formula milk and that guilt will always be on my heart but I know one day when the child grows up, he would know why I did that.
He would understand me, won't he?
"Come on! Let's go," Zion shouts.
"But where?" I ask.
"Into the meadows. I need to give a peaceful walk to my pregnant wife," he says and I laugh and we both set together to the meadow that's behind our farm house.
Many times, I have thought that loving Zion is my greatest mistake. I should move on from him. I should have chosen Kevin all the way Ans must have gave him chance but I could never do that.
For me it was always Zion Ans it will always be Zion.
After Kevin's death, everyone blamed Zion for his death. Zion didn't speak a single word in front of them even though he knows the truth.
It wasn't him who causes his death. But it was Kevin himself.
But he didn't say anything on his behalf.
I have never heard him being such helpless in front of anyone but that day he was quiet just quiet.
Later I asked him, why he did that?
"I don't want them to show the bad image of their son in front of them. He is their son and they know him like what they think as. I don't want them to lose that single hope from their hearts. I can't take him back but I also can't take the love he deserves Ans respect his deserves even after that," he said.
He had never thought of any relationship as a serious term. Maybe I thought so.
But actually, Zion understands the relationships more than anyone.
Honestly, he is amazing.
I was nerd and introvert before I met him in my life. He made me break the rules of mine own and fall for him. I did break so much of rules for him and I never regret that.
And now when I see him, I feel proud that I broke those rules of my own. When I feel him on my arms I feel that sometimes breaking your rules bring you happiness in life along with the risks and sometimes when you break the rules, unexpected result might show up and might take your life to next level.