Chapter 17 Proposal
I went up to Raven and knelt and said "Raven I know it's too early but I love you so much, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Will you marry me?"
Yes, oh my gosh yes I will marry you I said, and he slid the ring into my fingers. Oh my, I started crying. Are you okay dear? I'm fine, I'm just so happy I said hugging him. I went to my friends and family to show them the ring. What do you think? I asked my friends, "It's beautiful," Riley replied. Amanda, why are you being so quiet? It's nothing, it's just that isn't it too early to propose? I mean you just got back together.
What the hell Maddy, you should be happy for me, not questioning my decision I said glaring at her.
She held her hands up okay sorry it's your decision am happy for you.
Congrats dear she said hugging me. It was the best day ever.
I am so happy that I am getting married in a few weeks.
Everything is going great but I just don't get Ethan's mood swing, I mean what the hell is going on with him.
One minute he's happy, the next he's yelling at me over little things I do, what the hell is going on? I thought he was seeing a therapist or something.
Maybe it was about what I told him, about losing his first male child, shocker right.
it's happened the very day I spent the night at his place, it was after the celebration and I was so tired to leave, Ethan suggested I should stay over.
I mean it okay, this way we'll get to spend more time with each other. I told Blue we were staying over but she refused to say she wanted to stay with Dani.
Gosh that girl, I had to let her go with Maddy.
You see I wasn't just having a child that day, I was having two. We didn't know I was having twins.
The child was hiding
On the day of delivery, Blue was the first one out she was so beautiful kept crying, and all I just wasn't expecting that there was another child in my womb after delivering the second child I was so happy Ethan but all of a sudden no cries was heard from the baby the doctors tried everything they could to bring him back but he was dead, I don't even know why or how but he was dead Ethan, l said crying on Ethan's shoulders while he held me close to him, it was emotional. I shouldn't have said this to him, this was supposed to be a happy day now that I have ruined it.
I just wanted him to know That he had a very beautiful son, "David Ethan Carmicheal"
I moved in with Ethan a few days after he proposed to me, and after all the emotional talk, I guess I was just so excited to be his wife again. I miss staying with him.
Ever Since we moved in, Ethans has been behaving aggressively, sometimes I get scared that he might hit me or something. I hope he never does that, though he had held my hand a little tight which caused some bruises he had apologised for holding tight.
I remembered the first time he slapped me, yes our very own Ethan. We were attending this family party and Ethan started complaining about what I was wearing.
Look, Ethan, nothing is wrong with this dress, I said before I knew it he slapped me, I held my cheek now go inside and change this, you look like a whore. Am so grateful my daughter was not here to witness this.
I changed and got in the car with him then he apologised "look am sorry Raven I didn't mean to do that I was just angry, something happened at work, am so sorry forgive me, baby".
This was what had been going on for a few weeks now one minute he will but the next he will apologise, I think he's bipolar or something.
On this fateful night we got into another argument he was flirting with the waitress while I was sitting there, "why do you keep flirting with the waitress Ethan?"I asked "Babe am not flirting with her'' he denied I got angry and told him I wanted to leave we got into his car and he became angry "why the hell would you do that Raven, why would you embarrass me in front of those people you bitch" he sped up.
Me! a bitch, I couldn't even say anything and the idiot wasn't looking at the road.
Next thing I know I am bleeding and am being pulled out of the car. That was the last thing I remembered before I fainted.
I woke up in the hospital only to look around and see my daughter and Amanda all cuddled up on the chair sleeping, when I moved my body to sit up I felt pains all over I think I woke them up because Amanda was next to me asking how I was and how I was feeling before going to get a doctor
Two weeks later
I was discharged from the hospital. Ethan was by my side. He even apologised for what had happened. We lost our baby. I cried for weeks.
I couldn't even look him in the eye, he disgusts me, when I found out I lost the baby I was devastated.
I moved out of his house even though we were not married yet.
He begged me to move in with him and blue wanted to live with her dad so I agreed thinking it would make us happy only a month later, Ethan started going to work and coming home late, sometimes drunk.
Always giving stupid excuses telling me he has a business deal, he leaves and comes back in a week sometimes months and when he's back he doesn't even check up on me or his daughter was that too much to ask.
I spent day and night crying over him.