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Chapter 151 – Things I Can’t Give Up (6) Surrender Call
“Give up…”
Haruhara groaned from deep inside Shadow Yasha’s clone.
“We are… the best team. Not only in this world, but in any other world, there is no team better than us.”
“Haruhara…”
“I’ll never… admit it. You didn’t even try to face us. You’re telling us to give up because of your selfishness? Are you really saying that?”
“…Yes. I’m sorry.”
Such words would do nothing.
However, I couldn’t help but say it.
“Hey, Yuto from the other world. After all, you were scared… weren’t you?
“…What?”
“Spending time as Yuto in this world… and having adventures with Honoka-chan, Sayuki and me… You were afraid that if you went on like that, you’d think it wasn’t so bad.”
…I guess that’s part of it.
If going back to my original world is too difficult and too much of a sacrifice…
The more I accept the current situation alone, the fewer people will be unhappy.
No, if I could just accept it, I would not be unhappy either.
I don’t have to bring up the issue of maximum happiness for the maximum number of people, but objectively speaking, that would be a better choice.
“…Even I have things I can’t give up.
“Is that… more important than us? Is it more valuable than the tomorrow we live with?”
“It’s true, I am blessed in this world. I don’t deny that. I am happier, more fortunate, and more brilliant than I was in my original world.”
“Then why…!”
“Still, I don’t want to deny the reality of my life. To be honest, my life has been full of shit. Who’s happier here, me or the other ‘me’? I don’t need to compare. The other ‘me’ is certainly happier.”
“What, you mean…? So you’re going back to a world where you know you’re unhappy?”
“I’ve been living my life in a lame, uncool, embarrassing way… hurting and inconveniencing a lot of people. Do you understand? Hopelessness is the inability to believe in the future. I know that the future is completely uncertain, and the more time passes, the worse the situation becomes. And yet there is nothing I can do. I am at my wit’s end, standing in front of the emptiness that has opened up in the face of reality. And I’m wondering when I’m going to throw myself into it and die.”
“…Do you understand?”
“It was hell. I fought. I don’t know how many times I wanted to die.”
“…Are you telling me that you didn’t have a good time in the other world?”
“No, it wasn’t good at all. Objectively speaking, it seemed like my life was a mess, you know? Unlike this world, dungeons came late.”
“Huh? What do you mean?”
“I’m much older in the skill world than I am in this world. The timeline doesn’t match.”
No, that’s not exactly correct.
“The approximate time since the dungeon appeared is the same. It is possible that the dates and times are exactly the same. Well, I don’t remember exactly when the dungeon appeared on this side of the world, and I can’t find it in the news.”
“You’re older than us? Does that mean you’re a working adult?”
…That’s a difficult question to answer.
I’m an explorer now, so I can’t say I’m a working adult.
“Considering that, you’re very sneaky. You are satisfied with your own desires, aren’t you, old man?”
“I’m not old enough to be an old man yet.”
However, it is hard to say whether I am mentally older than these three.
“I’m sorry, but when you grow up, there are times when you can’t worry about being uncool or not. I can’t afford to be like that.”
“I don’t want to grow up that way.”
“Yeah. I agree.”
Haruhara dropped his head at my words.
Did he give up?
I thought so for a moment,
“Then there’s no need to hold back.”
When he raised his face, Haruhara’s eyes were filled with a bright red light.
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