183: One Two Eight: In such pain I wish I wasn’t alive!
Gui Xingfu is coughing up blood!_2 183: One Two Eight: In such pain I wish I wasn’t alive!
Gui Xingfu is coughing up blood!_2 Gui Qinshao picked up the dagger and first aimed it at her own heart.
Her body was so perfect that even covered in scars, it still exuded an astonishing beauty.
If she were to stab herself, she would certainly destroy this beauty completely, wouldn’t she?
Instantly, Gui Qinshao abandoned the idea of piercing her heart.
Then, she placed the sharp dagger against her neck.
A slash there would undoubtedly be fatal, but…
but once the blood spurted out, such a beautiful body, once it ran out of blood, would be as terrifying as a dried corpse.
She gritted her teeth again and again, but she couldn’t bring herself to commit the act, to end her own life.
Eventually, she was certain, she simply didn’t have the courage to commit suicide.
Then, she burst into tears again, flung the dagger far away, and once more curled up in a corner of the wall, crying loudly.
If she wanted to win this breath against Suo Lun, she should have committed suicide to show him how fiercely intense she was.
However, she truly couldn’t bring herself to do it, revealing her own fear of death to Suo Lun, an act of extreme shame.
Thus, she held onto her tears until she fell asleep.
Gui Qinshao didn’t know how much time had passed when she awoke again, roused by hunger this time.
These days at home, she had almost been filled with anger instead of food, barely eating at all.
After falling into Suo Lun’s hands, she hadn’t had a single grain of rice, especially after all the crying and tantrums, so she was already extremely hungry.
In a flash, Gui Qinshao felt shame unto death again.
Having been defiled by Suo Lun, she should have committed suicide to prove her innocence.
But unable to do so, she displayed her weakness.
Now, she even felt hungry.
At such a time, the grief and pain were not enough to satisfy her hunger, the realization of which was unbelievably shameful.
What’s more shameful was Suo Lun himself, not bringing her any food for several days and nights.
This bastard, this beast, this demon.
“Father, Father, why haven’t you come to save me?” Gui Qinshao burst into tears once more, then exhausted, fell into a deep sleep.
Once again, not knowing how long it had been, Gui Qinshao woke up.
This time, it was the smell of food that roused her, and she had even dreamed of eating, of braised pork, her least favorite dish which she normally wouldn’t even touch.
Upon opening her eyes, she saw Suo Lun holding a bowl of braised pork, looking at her.
Though she knew she shouldn’t, she couldn’t help but swallow saliva.
“Sigh, my dear, you really have some nerve.
Not only do you not seek death, but now you still want to eat meat,” Suo Lun shook his head and said, “Where is your sense of decency?
Where is your dignity?”
“Get lost, get lost…you bastard, you bastard…” Angered in her shame, Gui Qinshao sobbed out loud.
Suo Lun covered his nose and said, “Beauty, you really should look at yourself in the mirror, completely filthy.
How many days has it been since you last bathed?
You’re smelling rotten all over.
My heavens, who would believe now that you’re a ravishing beauty?
If we were to take you out now, I reckon even the salt miners outside wouldn’t want you.”
Gui Qinshao instinctively sniffed and indeed detected a foul odor.
With the weather so hot and having not bathed for many days, even a stunning beauty wouldn’t smell pleasant.
Then, she grabbed at her hair, which was a complete tangled mess.
Instantly, she felt shame unto death once more.
She used to bathe twice a day using fragrant essential oils, maintaining her skin sweet as honey and scented like fresh flowers at all times.
As for her current self, she feared she was completely unsightly.
There is a saying on Earth, some women can’t even lift their heads if they go out without makeup, completely lacking confidence.
And Gui Qinshao, she had always been exquisitely beautiful, always enchanting, always immaculate.
But now, utterly filthy, her self-assurance and presence had vanished.
Why was she so proud, so arrogant?
It all came from her beauty, and of course, her martial skills, though the latter played a small role.
Then, Suo Lun that bastard, actually brought out a mirror for Gui Qinshao to see herself clearly.
“I don’t want to see, I don’t want to see, take it away, take it away, get out, get out…” Gui Qinshao cried out.
“I’m going, I’m going, you’re just too stinky,” Suo Lun said, covering his nose.
In fact, it wasn’t as exaggerated; Gui Qinshao’s body merely had a slight odor at this point, and despite her disheveled hair, she still looked irresistibly gorgeous.
Suo Lun actually left like that, taking the braised pork with him.
After that, Gui Qinshao couldn’t sleep at all, sinking into endless agony and inferiority.
The only thing in her mind was how ugly she must be now, how very ugly?
Although she knew she shouldn’t be thinking about such trivial matters at this time, she really couldn’t help herself, and couldn’t stop the grief that came from within her heart because she felt she was so superficial, worrying only about her beauty even at a time .
However, her concerns about her own beauty or ugliness were soon cast aside, as her stomach was just too hungry.
The sensation of hunger completely dominated her mind.
She was so hungry she almost wanted to bite herself.
So hungry, so very hungry, too hungry to sleep.
The following day, Gui Qinshao stayed awake, simply waiting for the next visit from Suo Lun.