"Why do you hate me so much? What did I do wrong? What did my feelings lack? Okay, you can't force feelings but you gave Bhai a chance to prove but not me. What should I consider your hypocrisy as?" He asked despairingly, carving scars on his chest left him on a desolated path filled with the thorn where his destined love was stolen from him. "Why is it easy for you to give everyone a chance but not me?" He asked in a croaky voice, knowing how they separated, she never found him again.
"I can't force myself to love you." She replied in the same tone, still choosing to break him.
"Huh? Ah, yes. You are absolutely right. You cannot force yourself.." He hummed, agreeing with her words but then struck her with the question she wasn't ready to answer. "Then what about the moment you buried in your heart and now punishing me for them? Ruining me for what you feel? Breaking my heart over and over again because of your fear." He hissed, his grip pricked a tear in her eyes, increasing her heartbeats in dread,
"It was all related-" He was about to continue but she said hurriedly, "It was just a mistake I don't want to repeat." She gasped at her own reply, not meaning her words.
"Mistake?" He asked, thinking he might have heard her wrong. "Rayan, No-" She tried to justify her slip of tongue but he pulled her closer, "Mistake huh?" He growled, frightening her, but biting his lip, he looked away, "Meaning... you never loved me?" He asked sadly. Swallowing hard, she said, "Rayan, listen"
"Just answer, Isra. Why is it so hard for you to answer?" He asked but she kept looking down, "Please don't do this to me, Isra... please..." He shook his head, slamming his free hand on the table, startling her but turning back to her he whispered desperately, "You know how much I love you... please don't neglect me. You know what I feel, what I think, I-I can't stay away from you, you dwell in my heart, I reside where you and if you will leave me in this condition, I will be ravaged." He spoke what she knew but was afraid to embrace and his words caused a tear to roll down her cheeks.
"I.. I.. Have nowhere to stay, I'll be ruined..." He pleaded, holding her hands tightly, "Where were these words before? When you were with Sateesha? Living your life happily? Bullying me for no reason?" She asked sorrowfully, trying to suppress her tears
"We made a pinky promise to move on and forget it all! And you... you.. Are now using it as an excuse to hate me. I ask you what have I ever done that you resent me so much?!" He yelled, tears gleamed on the corner of his eyes but he didn't let them fall and hurt her for what's done for better was now in return became a source of woe.
"Rayan. It's not-"
"I love you, Isra. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you so much and you know it." He confessed, tightening his grip on her head. Stop it. "You know it when Emraz Bhai's proposal came. You knew before accepting this that I love you still you never cared."
"I... I thought you had moved on... You were with Sateesha, never paid attention to me. Always with her, ignoring me.. I.. I thought you don't care anymore..." And it hurt me more than you can imagine. Was silent. She stuttered with tears brimming in her eyes. "Do you truly think I would?"
"Then you and Sateesha...?" She trailed off, not believing he did this just to jealous her. "Yes. Still I couldn't forget you, no matter what, I couldn't get you out of my head, you were always there, in my heart... I couldn't do it.." He whispered but his sentence infuriated her, "Do you have any idea how much it hurt me?" She asked, bending on the ground to her a clear look of his devastated face blended with her pain.
"I love you, I love you so much. Please don't push me away." He continued to chant these words. "Give us a chance."
"I.. I.. Swear I will give you all happiness. I will love you more than anyone ever will but please. Please give me a chance."
"I am trying, Rayan. Believe me, I am." She kissed the back of his palm, whispering, crying silently at his raze. He stopped his agonizing cries and looked at her for a while and slowly lowered his head depressingly. "I see.."
Sniffling, he pulled his hand away from her, wiping his tears, "Ah, I am sorry, it took five minutes longer." He forced out a smile and scratched the back of his neck nervously, tears shimmered in the corner but he put up a pretense, "Sorry.. I love when my fingers intertwine with yours.."
"It makes me feel protected and loved. When you are near, I don't want to leave you ever again even if your hands were cold but what am I saying? I love everything about you. Isra, I-"
"Your very presence hurts me, Rayan." Isra told him, espying his features with her blurry eyes, moving closer to him, putting her hand on his chest, straining him. "Still, I want it." With the final whisper, she pressed her lips upon his, staggering him to no extent, moving to his level, pressing her lips upon his in a mesmeric harmony.
Rayan was too shocked to react but soon his heart skipped a beat by abrupt attraction arousing him, closing his eyes as a tear rolled down his cheek in inexplicable happiness but he was never given much options. He held her shoulders and pulled away, "Don't... please. I don't want you to have more reasons to hate me." He whispered sadly, putting his head on her shoulder, closing his eyes before passing out in her embrace.
She watched him with pity as her heart ached by his confession.