A SIN IN CHURCH
"Agrr..! My head" I tried to get up but the pain in my head caused me to relax.
" Shh...shh..shh, don't stress yourself" I slide my eyes to see who it was.
"Hey, how do you feel?" He asked.
"What happened?" My hands rubbing my temples.
"You got yourself hit by a bottle of wine and you are in the school clinic, you will be fine." He stated.
I remembered getting into a fight with Marty.
"How could she?. She could have killed me!" My head aches the more " Agrrr..!! My head hurt a lot".
" Relax! You don't want to hurt yourself, I already called the nurse, she's coming to check up on you" he said with so much care in his voice, I nod.
"How do you feel, girlie?" Asked the voice from behind Father Albert, it was Marty, she looked like she had been crying for a long time and she was still drunk.
" I.. don't ... want to see you" I said harshly.
"Am sorry girlie, I was drunk and I didn't know what came over me, please forgive me.." she walked closer crying.
I was really pissed at her, she almost destroyed my face, I would have been dead, only God knows.
"How could you, I thought we were friends!,and the reward I get for coping with your flirty attitudes, is a bottle of wine on my head, really!!." I slammed.
" Am sorry!! Am so sorry, I felt so jealous.., you have always been lucky with the attractive ones, and when I saw both of you.. I .. just couldn't contain myself, am so sorry" she cried even more.
Father Albert standing there looking dumb.
" I don't know if I can forgive you but right now,I need to rest, my head hurts" turning my back to face her, I could feel hot tear run down my eyes, I wanted to just hug her and say i'm sorry too, I knew how much she was into Father Albert,and I still went on to kiss him, I blame myself for being selfish.
"Am sorry Jane, and I hope you can forgive me,I won't forgive myself if anything has happened to you" she stood up.
"Am so sorry, Father Albert" I heard her walking out the door.
"Jane... You should have heard her out, she was sorry,plus she was drunk, she probably didn't know what she was doing." I didn't want to listen to anyone.
"I need some air please" biting my lips so he doesn't hear me crying.
"Oh.. ok!, You want me to leave?" I didn't respond, I didn't want him to but I needed to be alone.
" Okay!, You just take care of yourself, you know where to find me when you need me." He leaned closer and placed a kiss on my forehead.
That act took me by surprise, before I could turn to say a word, he was already out of the room, I relaxed on my back,facing the ceiling fan.
After some days, the scar on my scalp was already healing, I begged the school management not to involve my parents. Although I still feel the pain and anytime I see the scar, I felt a tiny rage play inside me, with time I stopped looking at it, probably because it was now invisible.
Weeks have past and I haven't said a word to her, ever since that day, I missed her and her annoying attitudes,but my guts won't let me apologize and make things just right.
Classes became boring,I skipped lunch,I was always in the library probably because Marty hated being there,I stopped going for choir practice to avoid the priest,guess he needed space too.
"Hey Marty" a familiar voice called out, I turned to see Father Albert calling out to Marty, I froze, I turned around almost out of breath and back to see clearly, his hand rest at her back as he opened the door for her, I saw her nod and smile to say thanks, they looked so in love.
Oh no! Oh no no no no!!..
This wasn't happening, rage filled me, how dare they, how could he do such a thing and I thought Marty was my best friend, I loved her like a sister!, I followed to see where they were going, but I was too late they had disappeared.
I couldn't contain the rage inside me, I ran straight to my dorm, reaching for my door handle open, I banged the door behind me as a hot tear comforted me.
I wanted to confront Marty, and ask her what was going on between them, but I rather hear from the horse's mouth, how could he kiss me and be in love with Marty, I needed to know what was going on, I was already losing my mind.
Class was almost done, immediately the bell rang and that was it for the day, I skipped lunch and went straight to my dorm to change.
I walked out of my dorm, straight to Father Albert's office, he wasn't there,I searched the music class and the library still to no avail.
"Agrr..! Where are you Armando!" My mind screams.
I need to find him, and I won't rest until I do, trying to figure out where he could be when I walked past the church and came back.I haven't searched the church, I walked in making the sign of the cross,my eyes finding the priest.
There were few people who came to pray, it felt so peaceful and happy in here, I relaxed and sat down on a chair close to a old lady, she didn't notice me, she was to busy with God, I smiled and closed my eyes remembering what my dad said to me, about finding peace with God.
I took a long breath in and out, made the sign of the cross and closed my eyes, putting my hands together in front of my face.
"Hey God, I know I am a sinner!.. but I have come to you, I am sorry for not always being here, but I am here now, basically because I need a favor." I sighed.
"Am tired of fighting!...
I need peace" I let out another sigh.
If there was God, I knew he heard me, I felt lighter just when I opened my eyes, I saw the priest and stood up almost in a hurry to go meet him,he was busy talking to a middle aged lady, I didn't distract,when he was done, he wanted to leave like he didn't see me.
"We need to talk Armando!" I started, almost shouting.