Jaidyn
The sound of my alarm clock ringing loudly made me flutter my eyes open and jerk up from lying on the couch. But of course, the clumsiness spiked up causing me to fall on the floor.
"Fudge" I swear, grimacing as my elbow hit the foot of the couch.
I sat up and rubbed my elbow. When the sting subsided a little, I picked up the book I was reading and stood up. I walked to the kitchen and got cold water from the fridge, drinking it at once.
I went back to the living room, my eyes landing on the clock. It was already 9:30 in the evening. I glance at the door, secretly hoping for a knock from Traian. I have been waiting for him all day, planning to ask him to bring me to the library and any store with wifi.
And when it was already 7, I decided that he would not come so I ate by myself and started to read until I fell asleep. Usually, I will sleep at around 12 or 1. But now, my body seemed to be adjusting to the vacation I was having and I felt sleepy this early.
I was about to switch off the lights when a knock came. I quickly went to the door and opened it, revealing the man I just hoped to see this whole afternoon. But the tiredness and tension on his shoulders made me frown.
"Are you okay?" I asked, opening the door wider.
He stepped inside, removing his boots and dropping the duffle bag he was carrying.
"Yeah, I just need to see you" he faced me after he removed his shoes.
"Is something wrong?" I asked concerned.
He simply wrapped his arm around my waist and buried her head to my neck, murmuring. "Something happened and I know it's just you who can calm me"
I don't want to pry and be nosy because I feel I don't have the right. This is a fling after all. Instead, I caressed his back and gently tapped it. We stood like that for a minute until he pulled away from me.
"I almost fell asleep with that," he said with a grin.
I jokingly rolled my eyes at him while my lips stretched in a smile. My eyes landed on the duffle bag on the floor.
"What's with the duffle bag?"
“It's my clothes. I always have that in my car because I always have an emergency trip to go to” he casually said.
“And you bring it here because…..”
“I want to sleep here” he straightforwardly said like always. “Can I? I just want to be near you”
I nodded, “Of course, but we will just sleep”
He laughed. And like always, I find myself liking his carefree laugh of him. The tension in his shoulders is long gone. I pointed to the other hallway. “That’s the bathroom”
He picked up his duffle bag, “Did you already eat? I know a store in the nearby town that is still open at this time or I can cook for you?”
He was the one who looked to be tense and had something on his mind but he was still concerned about me. “I already eat so no need for that. How about you?”
“Me as well”
I smiled at him, “Then no one buying anything at this hour”
He nodded and walked to the hallway that I pointed at while I strolled toward my bedroom. I hear the door closing. I walked to the nightstand to pick up my phone when I caught sight of the mirror. I looked at my reflection and almost cursed at how disheveled my hair was and the red lines from sleeping with strands of my hair. I picked my hairbrush from the drawer and combed my hair and even smoothened my shirt.
When I heard the bathroom door opening, I was already lying down on my side near the window. There was no need to go to the option of a couch when the two of us slept together. When I heard him walking towards my bedroom, instinctively, I shut my eyes as a pretense that I was already sleeping.
Why? I also don't know. What the heck am I doing?
I felt the mattress dip from his weight as he lay down. There was light shuffling on my side until I felt another pillow next to mine and a muscly arm wrapped around my waist. I felt his face on my nape, his nose on my skin.
“I really love the smell of your hair,” he murmured against my skin. I can feel his soft lips touching my skin.
“The smoothness of your skin against my lips. The feeling of your skin on my hands and the way your heart beats” he added as his hands moved upward to my chest as if to feel the heartbeat there.
I kept my eyes close, and my grasp on the blanket tightened.
“I love everything about you,” he continued, whispering.
Did he know I am awake?
“Goodnight, Jaidyn Murray” I felt him kiss my nape before he snuggled closer to me.
I waited a few seconds before opening my eyes, feeling how my pulse raced. These raw emotions and words, deep down I know, make me happy. It affects me more than I acknowledge. I know what these signs but I am afraid to confront t.
I diverted my eyes to the window where the curtain was slightly drawn exposing the bright and radiant moon in the center of the millions of stars scattered in the sky of darkness. I take a deep breath, closed my eyes, and I gave in once again to the voice of my heart. At that point, my mind was calm about the decision I made. I savor and let myself be engulfed by the heat of Traian’s body pressed against mine. I let myself succumb to the strength his arms provided and let myself give in to sleep.