We began eating in silence. He finished first while I took my time savoring the delicious food in my mouth.
As I savored the last of my steak, I said, "This is really wonderful. Where did you learn to cook? ”
I started to ask, simply because I want to. I felt tempted to ask him a question and strike up a conversation with him.
“From my mother. She was a good cook and she makes sure I learn all her dishes”
I said, "She sounds nice."
With a smile on his face, he said, "She is.”
His smile was beautiful enough for me to want to see it again. His muscles were tensing up against the shirt he was wearing as my gaze moved over his body. God, a man shouldn't look this handsome.
I imagined him naked. Hard. Muscular. Such strength. The thought of him naked once more and with my kisses on his body—something I didn't do the first time—made my cheeks flush. I cleared my throat and put my fingers on the stem of my wine glass, bringing it to my lips.
I shuffled in my seat, clamped my thighs together, and tried to convince myself that I should either flee from him or ask him to take me back to the town. To my cabin because this is not good. I tried to remember the reason why I was avoiding him and it was because it was wrong to feel drawn to him.
My relationship recently ended. This is not right.
There were urges awakening in me and thinking about sharing a bed with him just made my desire much worse.
I set the glass down and I could still hear it raining outside. “Where do I stay in the meantime? Do you have a guest room? ”
“Nothing, sweetheart, I only have one room and it is the one you just entered earlier," he said as he sipped wine and sat back in his chair with his attention locked on me.
I gulped, looking away from his gorgeous blue eyes not standing the intensity they had on me. “Then I will just sleep here”
He replied quickly, "We can sleep together," and I turned to look at him right away.
"W-what did you just say?”
“We can sleep together, kitten”
The chair screeched with abrupt force as I got up. "I don't believe that is a wise decision. I'll stay on the sofa.”
I turned to walk away but he suddenly appeared in front of me before I had even taken five steps. My path is essentially blocked by his body.
As I stepped back, I murmured, "W-what do you think you're doing?”
But as soon as his hand dropped to my waist, I was unable to move. I looked at him and put my hands on his chest to push him but my words stuck in my throat when he leaned closer to my ears. His breath fanned my cheeks.
"Kitten, who said I'd let you sleep on the couch?”
As his hands caressed my waist, the clothing I was wearing did little to block the heat from his skin from engulfing me.
My fisted hand tighten on his chest as I forced the words out of my mouth, “Get away—”
I couldn't finish my sentence when his hands slid under the shirt and rested on my navel.
“I know you don't mean that Jaidyn” He nibbled my earlobe and said, "I can smell your desire, kitten.”
I shut my eyes and breathed out slowly.
"Just give me your word, Jaidyn, and I will take care of you."
Over the last day, my arousal for him has been intensifying. And it seemed crazy to think that my yearning for a man I had chosen to shun had me feeling so out of control right now. Heck, I only made my decision yesterday and now I am changing my mind!
But there was no getting around that.
Since the moment I met him, I've felt a latent desire of mine begin to come to the surface as if it had lain buried for a long time and he was the answer to unleashing it. Yes, Anthony and I had done this, but I had never felt as drawn to him as I feel to Traian. Everything felt very different to me.
And now that I was so near to him, I could smell the potent, addictive scent of his masculinity—a dark scent that left me dripping wet between my thighs. My nipples stiffened, although this time not from the cold, and my heart raced. He then gave me a quick glance while flaring up his nose as though he could smell me. He had hooded eyes, and I couldn't help but think of how he looked in the heat of a passionate moment. I felt a chill go up my spine. Then, just from that intense look in his eyes, I felt goosebumps rushing up my arms and legs and felt as though the air was being pulled right out of my body.
I looked away but his free hand held my chin gently to look at him.
"Look at me, Jaidyn." He urged in a low voice, “Tell me what you want, and I'll give it to you”
I remained silent for a few seconds. Without realizing it, I licked my lips and said, "I can't...I can't do that"
“Is that a no?” he repeated, challenging me.
I began by saying, "I….."
*Why can't I repeat it?* Despite my best efforts, I have been tempted to touch him. Knowing how his presence affects my body, I made the decision to stay away from him. He was bringing out a side of me that I had never even known existed. But right now, all of my logical thoughts are gone. My body and mind appeared to be in perfect harmony. There was no ickiness settling in me that I am cheating. I felt content.
His voice is so velvety that I could feel my hesitations ebbing away as he said, "Just say the words."
I stumbled out, "This is not right. This is too soon”
“Too soon for what, kitten?”
I gaze at his ocean blue eyes, and the words naturally leave my lips, “To want you.”