You didn't even get a hint of it, but your heart gets it all.
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Fact: A handsome guy is kissing me.
Curious fact: I don't even know him.
Strange fact: I liked it.
When his lips crashed mine that was a moment when I forget everything. His lips were so soft and a weird tingling feeling ran through them to the tip of my toes.
Slowly, he nibbled on my bottom lip causing my stomach to flip.
Oh my god, what should I do? He's kissing me and I don't even know him. This is my first kiss and I'm enjoying it? What the hell is wrong with me
Just push him away. Will you?
Yeah, I need to push him this is the only thing I can do. I moved my hands to push him but they don't want to do it. My hands found their place around his neck and what happened next you can't believe it because I'm not believing it also.
I kissed him back!
Yeah. I kissed him back
It is obnoxious. Why? Because I didn't even know him and I kissed him back.
We were both engaged in our kiss when someone cleared his throat and tapped on the shoulder of the man whom I kissed him although he kissed me first.
He excused himself and went to talk to the person who interrupted us.
I was waiting for him to come back to me. I can see them from here where they were talking but I was waiting for him to come.
Just go already!
Should I go? I think I need to go to him before I can't recognize him in the crowd because just like me he's also wearing the mask-like everybody else. I want him to take his mask off. So, that I can see him.
Fighting with myself I went in their direction but they were engaged in conversation?
An Art of exchanging words.
I already know that thank you very much for my inner voice for enlightening me.
Ok, they were engaged in some serious conversation. What should I do? Should I listen to their conversation or should I just go back?
I'm really confused now because it is against etiquette to listen to other people's conversation, I sighed as I thought to myself.
Oh to the hell with etiquettes. Just listen for once will you?
Yes. I"ll think about them later. I went to the pillar which is the nearest to them without making any noise and hide beside it.
"They are here. " The one who interrupted us said.
"Why? " he asked in anger while punching the wall.
And let me tell you one thing, a sweet moment made me jump due to fear.
"I don't know. " the guy muttered
"Let's go then. " he started walking on the opposite side.
"Cole are you ok. "
Wait! What? Did I hear right or this is some stupid thought of mine?
"Cole wait I'm coming with you. " and they both vanished in the crowd.
I stiffened in my place.
Yeah.
I heard right.
Definitely,
How the hell this is supposed to mean means that Cole is the one with whom I was danced and above all the kiss.
Does my first kiss happen to be with him .why? God why
Why you're doing this to me from above all why does it happen to be Cole .why the hell did he kiss me? And not just kissing me he makes me like it and somehow he made me kiss him back.
Is this some other dirty game of Cole? then I'm going to kill him but when I thought maybe he didn't even know because of that stupid mask.
But why did he say that he has seen me in his dreams?
Oh, how can you believe it? Maybe it was his way of flirting.
Yeah. Maybe! But I can't stand here as nothing happen. I need to be alone to think to calm myself otherwise I don't know what will happen. I don't trust myself I have anger issues. So, I should be alone for some time. I sighed and went towards the washroom. It is the only place I think so far. when I reached there I take my time to think about whatever happened in the last few hours. I couldn't get any idea why this is all happening. Is this is a coincidence or it has happened intentionally.
After spending my time in the washroom. I decided what I need to do is get out of it as fast as I could.
Determination set in my mind I get out of the washroom and started walking towards the exit door without anything noticing and then I saw something.
Cole is kissing some other girl in the middle of the dance floor where everyone is watching them. How can he do that? After kissing me he's kissing another girl. Tears build up in my eyes and I started crying. I know it may sound stupid that's why I'm crying for this! To the hell with it. I don't even know why I'm crying about this. It is his life he can kiss anyone and do anything in his life.
I don't know why and when but my heart is about to explode.
What the hell is happening to me? Oh my god, I've never thought of someone like I'm feeling now! Why I'm crying? Why I'm behaving like I had a breakup. why is something happening to my heart why I can't breathe why I can't do anything about it?
Why? What the hell is wrong with me. Why I'm crying for him. It's just a kiss for god sake but then why?
Because you've felt for him and you're jealous as simple as that.
Seriously is it true? I've felt for him? Then what if I've.
he's simply not interested in me I know that and he's also not interested in a girl which he kissed before who fatally happened to be me. Yeah, that's why he's doing this. he's kissing another girl without thinking that everyone's eye is watching them like an eagle's eye watching their food.
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I found myself in that section where all the drinks were served.
"Give me some real drink" I heard my voice.
When I received drink whatever it has I gulped it all in once.
What do you expect me to do after drinking the real drink which I don't even do what it is?
Dance like a maniac? Well, that thing I can do without drinking.
So, made out with some stranger? I don't think that will happen in my case.
And last but not least. To start vomiting? In the middle of this stupid gala, I'm not doing that stupid thing thank you very much.
I moved and get out of this place as fast as I could and started crying harder and harder. Yeah, it's sound like shitt but what can I do? I'm not in control of my tears.
I'm feeling lonely completely lonely and it sucks.
I took out my phone and dialled mom's number. She picked up in the third ring.
"Hello, Amanda! Why are you awake this late? "
"Mom" I whispered.
"Have you been crying? " concern tripping from her voice.
"No"
"Then why do you sound like that? And are you outside of the house? "
"Yes"
"What? Are you drunk"
"Yes. No. I don't know. " I muttered.
"Amanda parker I"ll talk to you later about this. Now tell me your location so I can send you a cab. Do you understand? She demanded.
"Yes. "
I give her address in my sleepy voice only I know how can I manage to give it to her without passing out. A cab arrived in less than twenty minutes. I went inside it and fell asleep but I have got a feeling that I'm forgetting something.
Well, I can think about it later, now everything is a blur to me. The cab driver woke me up by literally shouting in my ears when I reached my home.
After almost twenty times trying, the door of my home is finally unlocked.
I sighed.
I'm not able to walk any further my whole body is tipsy I can't even stand on my own. one thing is good that I'm in my home now.
Then everything went blurry
blurry