GRACIE
"That you're going to remember, and you'll begin to despise me once again..."
The anguish in his voice tore at my heart
"I'm afraid of that....so afraid " his whisper was tight and gut-wrenching. His gaze burned with bright intensity against the dimly lit room.
His gaze not only mirrored the deep anguish in his voice, deep down I think he hated himself, he despised that he hurt me but at the same time couldn't let me go...
I held his gaze, inhaling and exhaling repeatedly to control my quivering insides.
"Do you know when I left years ago, I had felt so lost.....like I had lost the only person who needed me, the only person who would always be there when I opened my eyes whether I wanted it or not... "
My voice cracked tight as I remembered those nights filled with bitter tears, it still seemed like only yesterday.
I reverted my gaze to him, what I saw there was soul-wrenching...his expression was pained as he pressed his forehead to mine.
"The bed would always be empty...it was so lonely. You were so hurtful, but I knew, knew that you cared for me in your way. I didn't realize until I left that I had already gotten used to you Hayden. your hurt...your hate, your obsession, I got used to everything! and you know what?.... the bunny also left her heart behind with the big bad wolf.. " my voice trailed off, heavy with sadness.
I didn't realize when a stray tear streaked down, to fall past my chin, then more followed until it became too blurry to see him. But it wasn't just me, his gaze was red-rimmed and turned into a shade of glassy green.
Who found each other first didn't matter, because next thing I was enfolded in his tight embrace, the heat radiating from his body slowly sipping into mine as I kept sobbing.
"I will never hate you...not anymore " I spoke in a tight fierce whisper.
He molded me even closer to him if it was possible, I heard his sharp intake of breath before he tilted my chin to meet his scorching gaze.
"Say that again.... please "
The raw desperation in his gaze clawed at my heart, the air between us was thick, our emotions a mess, it had always been like this between us, but this time felt different.
"I love you Hayden " The words slipped from my mouth with everything I felt inside. I felt drained like I've dragged down an invincible wall with my own hands.
"You were too good for me, you still are, this bad wolf will surely take everything you have to give "
I closed my eyes as he pressed his lips to mine softly, his fingers caressing the small of my back. I opened my eyes to find his glazed with passion.
"Hayden.." I breathed out when his lips peppered kisses on my cheek. My jaw and my neck.
"Make love to me Hayden " I whispered holding his gaze, he knew what I was asking.
My gaze still locked with his, his arms wrapped around me pulled me against him as he walked us backward and lowered me down, his body following the next second.
This time he kissed me as his life depended on it, his tongue delving into the deepest part of my mouth, he drank like he was dying of thirst, and I was the only cure, each stroke made my lower stomach burn with raw need, my fingers groped his hair pulling him even closer... I was willing to take all he could give to me.
He pulled away panting and breathless, pausing only long enough to shred the clothes off our bodies aching with need.
"Hayden... " I breath out in pleasure as his length slid into my warmth, his hips started a slow rhythm, pumping inside of me with slow unhurried strokes, taking me to the highest brink of pleasure.
"Tell me " He panted, his hot tongue feasting against the junction between my neck as he ground his hips against mine.
A whimper escaped my mouth, my toenails raked his back, traveling to his toned ass, pulling him closer..... needing him closer.
"I love you " I gasped arching my back as he slowly drove us to ecstasy.
His arms didn't let go of me for a moment as we both panted to catch our breath.
"It had never been like this... Not ever" I heard him whisper just before my eyes drifted close. I could only agree with him silently.
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I felt a light tap on my chin, I ignored the distraction and tried to drift back to sleep when it came again, even more, harder this time.
A groan escaped my mouth as my eyes fluttered open to meet that of my daughter. Another groan escaped my mouth, I could use a little more sleep but it has always been her habit to wake me up whenever she awakes before me.
"Good morning sweetie," I said sitting up slowly with the sheets draped around me, my gaze took a quick scan around the whole room, but he wasn't anywhere around.
"Daddy said not to wake you up, but you've been asleep for so long, you're not sick or something are you?" The concern in her gaze made the slightest feeling of guilt stabbed at my heart. I felt my face flushed at the heated memories of last night.
Not sick, but tired, and sore in some certain parts.
After waking up many times during the night, only to be sent back to sleep by a round of love-making, it went on until my aching muscles couldn't take any more of it.
The connection between us had never felt so intense as we've ever been before, I didn't know what changed, but something did...
"Uh. Why don't you go downstairs and tell him I'll be down shortly " I told her and she sooner skipped her way out of the room.
I entered the bathroom and did my business, taking a deep breath I walked out of the bathroom.
It was weird but I felt suddenly nervous to see him, but another part of me was anticipating, I exhaled aloud as I made my way out of the room.
As I walked my gaze take note of the familiar interiors, everything made it seem as if I had never left.
Nothing's changed in all these years but at the same time everything's changed, the change came from deep inside me, the walls had always filled my younger self with terror.
Was it just me or did it no longer seemed so scary and suffocating?
I heard the voices, one I recognized unmistakably to be Hayden's.
Then another, also strangely familiar.
It grew louder as I completely made my way down the stairs and came to view.
Amongst Hayden and Hazel was the person I had seen last six years ago.
Sebastian.
All pairs of gazes directed at me and the conversations suddenly came to an end leaving us with silence.