Once he thought he could achieve perfection this time, but now it seems there are still many imperfections to remedy and many details to improve.
Time travel might be lucky for ordinary people, but for a perfectionist researcher, it’s a torment.
Because there is always something more perfect beyond perfection.
Ren Zhong thought if he gave up the ultimate development at this stage and left, no matter how high he reached in the future, there would always be regret in his heart.
Just like the college entrance exam, if someone lazes at the start and fails to realize their potential, regret is bound to accompany them for life.
No matter what height one reaches in life, when their hair turns gray, and time has passed, the prime years gone, they will certainly remember and wonder, if I had tried a little harder at life’s crossroads, what would it be like now?
This doesn’t vary with a person’s social status, achievements, or wealth.
On the contrary, the more ambitious and striving the person, the more they are inclined to such regrets in their twilight years.
Ren Zhong is just such a person.
His life is filled with self-reproach, extreme aversion to regret, even knowing it can be remedied.
If he chose to lie low, maintaining his current low profile moving forward, the final result would only, as Ma Dafu said before the Pu Cha, leave with endless regret and a few trusted wildlings to a return he imagines exists but actually doesn’t.
Because at this pace, the town will certainly fail the Pu Cha, and won’t escape the threat of the Demon Infant.
So assuming he manages to live on, many years later, when he finally returns home triumphant, standing before the ruins of Starfire Town and the inevitable bone-strewn ground like that of Bone Valley, what would he think?
I would inevitably think.
If I had taken one more step back then, even if it meant dying once more, what would Starfire Town be like if I passed that hurdle?
Can I withstand such guilt?
Can I overcome this regret?
Would I contemplate sacrificing myself, enduring more pain, to exchange my life for hope for twenty thousand people, and then simply choose suicide?
Only to, having gathered my strength over half a lifetime, bloom once again in this Starfire Town, effortlessly accomplishing exceedingly difficult goals, saving everyone.
Then would I truly have no regrets?
Would I not have new regrets in the future?
Ren Zhong found that he could not get an answer to this question.
Because his fear of death has gradually been dispelled by the experience of resurrection.
He does not deny the small town is filled with darkness and filth.
Perhaps many wildlings, like the burly man with the surname Huang, are not worthy of life.
But in this land full of dirt, still there grew Yujin, that deceived little girl, Wen Lei, Ai Jiasan, Chen Hanyu, people who deserve to live.
These people are a little light in the darkness.
Ren Zhong knows well there are must be more people he hasn’t seen yet who still exist and deserve to live, struggling in their own way, hanging on.
Not seeing does not mean they don’t exist.
Thinking about the scene if he left, Ren Zhong’s breathing gradually quickened.
How could I bear to extinguish the hope in their hearts?
Even if it’s only once, I don’t want to do it.
Because I don’t want to leave a crack in my memory.
The feelings Ren Zhong invests in the wildlings of Starfire Town are no less than those for Ma Dafu.
This is his ideal starting point, where he planted the first spark belonging to him, and the meaning of continuing to live on Source Star as a 21st-century human.
Although he hasn’t been here long, he indeed has feelings for Starfire Town, and it’s very strong, and he never restrained these feelings, instead intentionally indulging them.
Because only this way, he can remember who he is, where he comes from, and what he needs to do.
And not, like others, immediately integrate into a new class after a change in status.
Tonight, the indulgent noise of Zheng Tian and others, is it not because they have adapted to being the strongest semi-professional team in Starfire Town?
They have become completely indifferent to other people’s feelings.
The next step is becoming entirely indifferent to other people’s lives, whether good or bad.
Zheng Tian, Wen Lei, and others, even around him, inevitably become .
This world is terrifying.