SORA
"A coma?"
I can't hear my voice anymore, the room is spinning and I feel like I might throw up on the clean white floors inside the royal hospital.
My legs give out and my son Caelan catches me before my knees could hit the floor. "Mother-"
"I want to see my mate, I need to see him, p-please Caelan, I need to see my m-mate!" I practically beg out, tears falling from my eyes freely now as I grip onto my son's shirt, seeing my own broken reflection in his eyes.
He nods his head, a look of dread on his face as he looks at me, then those around us.
I could care not for what people are thinking right now, I am not being emotional, my mate was dug out of that collapsed building, the love of my life, their past King, the strongest wolf to date was buried alive, fighting for his life.
I knew something was wrong the instant I felt like something had landed on me, I sensed Kane in dire trouble, my chest was hurting way too much to ignore, I could feel everything he was feeling and I could do nothing but clench my chest and steady my breathing.
Hours...
It took us hours to get him out of there, if not for the mate bond, we would have never found Kane, and when we did- I will never get the image of him impaled out of my mind, for as long as I may live, the image of him laying there unconscious will stick with me forever.
I had almost lost him, he wasn't breathing, I could feel the bond starting to crack.
No matter how much pain I was in from almost losing my mate, no pain could keep me from finding him, and in pain I was, I had never felt anything like it before, I had only heard stories of the pain from losing your mate, but I never thought I would ever feel this pain.
Kane couldn't die, he just couldn't, he can't leave me, not my Kane.
Our entire family is here, waiting for any news that I will bring back, causing pain in the pit of my stomach at the dread of the millions of thoughts that race through my mind right now, all the things that could go wrong, what if he doesn't heal? What if..
No, I cannot think like this, I must stay strong, for Kane, my mate!
I feel eyes on us as Caelan hold onto me to stop myself from falling again, we walk down the hall where doctors rush in and out, some stand outside with distress on their faces and I know exactly why.
It's Kane's room..!
I release Caelan's grip from me and I run down the hall until I reach his room, and the overwhelming stench of Kane's blood has me nauseous, so nauseous, then I see his face, so bloodied and bruised, and pale- oh so pale I couldn't tear my eyes away from him.
Doctors were trying to stop the bleeding from the hole in his chest, a clean large hole had pierced his torso, missing every vital organ he had survived but the loss of blood was making his body work harder than it was used to, hence why they had to work fast to fight infection.
I see a man rush past me and go to his side as I pray to the moon goddess for comfort, I hear him cast something, making the room glow a bright blue that hurt my eyes and the eyes of every wolf in the room.
Kane's face shifts and I can feel his pain, I can feel everything and a part of me is glad, that the bond did not break, he will be fine- I keep telling myself he will make it.
I rush to his side and glad hold of his hand and caress it. "I'm here Kane, I'm here! I'm not leaving your side- please come back to me." I whisper to him as I move the strands of hair from his wet forehead, which is covered in blood.
I look to his stomach and it has started to repair itself, causing me to release the breath I didn't know I was holding, no longer feeling nauseous, I look to the man who helped heal him, to find that he was already looking at me, with sadness in his eyes.
"Will he be ok?" I ask, not recognizing my voice, it's small and weak.
My heart is beating feverishly as I wait for his answer, I follow his eyes as he scans his injuries. "Yes, Luna, he seems to be responding well to my magic, having you beside him will have him healed in no time."
Oh, thank you. "I don't know how I could repay yo-"
The machine beeps furiously and all eyes drop to Kane, including mine as we all watch his eyes forced open like a beast in a frenzy, he reaches for the wires and cables attached to him, in an attempt to pull them out.
"K-Kane stop! You need to heal!" I yell out panicky, holding his arms still.
I feel him relax to my voice, then he looks over at me and his face relaxes, even bloodied and bruised, with a mask over his mouth, I can feel every emotion he is thinking right now, it shows on his face, as well as his hand raising to mine.
I hold his hand and hold it close to me without hurting him, he tries to speak but I stop him. "Baby, shh, don't say anything, I'm here, you're safe, you are home, I'm here, we are all here." I say softly, bringing his hand to my cheek as I look at him physically relax in his muscles.
A throat clears behind me and I turn to see the sorcerer who helped heal Kane smile awkwardly at me and Kane, clearly uncomfortable with our display of affection. "Luna, I will take my leave, I will be back shortly to check on his condition."
I sigh, feeling myself relax. "Thank you...?"
"Crane, Luna, Crane Carrigan, from Duena realm." He introduces himself, standing tall and putting his fist on his chest respectfully.
"Thank you, Mr.Carrigan, anything you need, please do not hesitate to ask, anything at all." I tell him, meaning every word as I keep my tears from falling.
He nods his head with a small smile, then nods before he leaves the room, along with the pack doctors and nurses, all keeping their heads low as they leave, leaving me alone with Kane in privacy.
Once everyone has left, it feels as if the cloak around me has fallen and the fear finally consumed me, so many emotions run through my head, that I feel like I could break any moment.
I sigh out, the stress of today finally letting me relax slightly, but it did not help, the thought of losing Kane was too much for me to bear, I did not want to feel like that ever again.
I feel Kane squeeze my hand gently, causing me to look at him, and that's when I fully take in his appearance, which causes a sob to escape my lips as I stare at my love, who came so close to leaving me.
"I-I almost lost y-you."
Kane's eyes soften as his thumb caresses my hand gently. "N...ne-ever." He croaks out thickly, his voice cracking as he speaks.
"W-Water." He begs with his eyes and I waste no time from getting up from my seat to grab a glass and fill it with water.
I rush back to his side and take the mask from his mouth as I hold the glass to his lips, and my other hand helps raise his head.
Carefully I help him drink, hopefully easing his dry throat as he takes small sips at a time, when he is done, only drinking half, I lower his head and put the glass on the table beside me.
I look down to his chest, noticing the hole has now shrunken in size, now it is only the size of a fist, not a bowling ball.
He's healing, he's going to be fine Sora.. he won't die that easily. I repeat the words for comfort, not wanting to worry Kane, I need to be strong for him, I can't let him see me like this, never again.
I help him with his mask and put it back over his mouth and I try and lighten the mood before I feel like breaking down in front of him. "E-Everyone is here, o-our children are outside, you had everyone worried sick." I force a laugh. "Y-You always did like to c-cause a ruckus." I try to joke as I speak, but I just sound as I feel.
"...Sora, don't." He says huskily, his face twisting in pain and regret.
I shake my head and let the tears fall, not holding it in anymore, I grip my hair tightly and move away from his side. "You died Kane, I felt it.. I-I felt you die."
I can feel his pain, as he could feel mine, and at this moment, all I could do was break down in tears, my throat painfully burning and my chest tightening as I cannot control how I feel anymore, I let the emotions of everything I have felt for the past five hours overtake my senses.
I did not even hear Kane come beside me, with one hand gripping his stomach as his face twists in pain, but not from the wound, from seeing me. "I'm so sorry, I'm sorry, please.. do not cry, please." He says hoarsely, wrapping his strong arm around me, bringing me close to his chest.
I break down in his arms and let his warmth surround me lovingly.
I cry and let it all out into his chest for what feels like hours as he wraps his arms around me protectively, he was fully healed now, the only pain he felt was one of sadness for the loss of friends and family, and the heartbreak of seeing his mate almost lose him, one we both shared more then we like to admit.
The thought of losing your mate was always there for us, but not once did any of us think we had come so close to making it a reality.
I don't know how long we stood there holding each other, but I know it would never be enough, for neither of us, he was mine and I was his.