The view from our hotel room balcony was beautiful. I can see the beauty of Paris from up here and the Eiffel Tower, Sean is taking a shower, my mind goes back to the information he told us before we had lunch. Someone has attacked my Audi, I want to know the condition of the car I bought with my own sweat, how bad the damage was and who did it. My mind immediately chose someone, and Atika’s name came out as the winner of my assumption this time, but I didn’t find a strong reason to accuse her. I hug my body because of the cold night wind on my skin, I’m only wearing my nightgown at this time. I was distracted by Sean’s voice talking to someone, out of curiosity I left the balcony and went into the room.
“Are you crazy? It’s your problem with your husband I don’t want to interfere...don’t cry, Atika, my mom and Rani won’t agree if I tell her about this... What?? You want me to tell Ariana?! No! Until you say a word to him about this our friendship is over!!”
Sean put his phone on the table and brushed his hair. I was stuck with frantic thoughts in my place, why did that damn woman have to be an obstacle between me and Sean?? What problem happened to that woman to involve Sean??
“Ana, are you okay?”
Sean threw my mind into the real world, my tongue was numb and my brain was paralyzed, I couldn’t think of a single word to say. Sean looked at me with a confused look mixed with wariness, the look on my face right now could definitely make him think about what I was thinking right now. Why can’t Sean ignore that bitch??
“Who called you?”
The question came out of my brain’s natural response. Sean was taken aback for a moment, but his gaze turned completely wary and his face tensed.
“Atika, she called because-“
“Why can’t you just ignore that woman??”
I’m getting angry.
“Ana, she’s one of my closest people and we-“
“What ?? Unique relationship ??” My snapped with emotions that rose to the highest level.
Do we have to fight at the honeymoon ?? Holy fucking shit !! I threw my hand on the side of my body.
“Please, Ariana, don’t fight.”
“Late for that, what is your relationship with her more important than my feelings ??” I asked sharply.
“Do you know how I feel when I see you at that time in the restaurant ?? When I heard you called with her as she just happened ??” Sean just silent in his place while looking at me with a gaze I didn’t understand.
“She has been someone who means in my life, I just tried to be what she had ever done to me.”
My feet seemed to step on the broken glass, it felt sick to spread to my joints and to my heart. I’m a reflex down to hide tears that will soon come out.
“If she asks you so you leave me, will you do it ??” I asked the question in a stumped state, hiding tears and holding my sobs so that I could survive in this fight.
“What ?? No! It won’t happen, Ana, your mind is too far away.” I snorted with a sad smile, my tears made it out of my efforts not to cry.
“Yes, my mind is too far away, my mind is very ridiculous, my mind is very ...” I cried because of all fears, anger, and my love for him mixed in me.
“Oh, Ana, I beg you don’t-“
“I love you Sean !! And you seem to underestimate our relationship !!” I shouted angry.
My body trembled because of anger, my blood seemed to boil in my veins. I looked at Sean with tears that pooled in my eyelids, he looked very surprised by my anger. Shelled tears on his face and in his eyes quickly, then breathed my breath roughly, I left Sean who stood in his place like a mannequin. Throwing my body on the bed, suddenly I felt very tired and also sad, my tears broke, I didn’t care about this pillow that would get wet because of my tears, I just wanted to cry to shed this sadness. I will lose my sanity if you have to be like this at any time, fight with him about that damn woman. I don’t know how long I cried alone on the bed, I felt my eyes felt heavy finally, I decided to sleep.