Natasha POV.
I heard my doorbell ring and I looked at the monitor, my eyes darkened to see who it was, I scoffed and opened the door as Yvonne stepped inside and addressed me as Malinda Kristen.
"Are you here to cause more troubles?" I asked in a cold voice, if she had been the one who started all of these, if she had not been jealous, if she had not reported all that to Mr Gilbert, my life and Russeli's life wouldn't be so messed up now.
"Or have you found more information about me because you are so good at that?" I paused when I saw tears roll down her cheek and she fell to her knees.
"I am so sorry Malinda." She clasped her hands to her front and my lips parted in shock, was she apologizing to me right now? "I am sorry for everything I have done to you in the past, but can you please understand that I love Russeli so much, I beg you, please leave his side."
I was stupid to think this was a real apology, up until now she wanted me to leave. "You disgust me, Yvonne." I chuckled. It was laughable, how cold can a person be?
"You think I will leave because you asked me to?" I squat down to meet her gaze. "Why don't you leave, Russeli doesn't love you nor did we need you in our lives, so Yvonne, think of a way to pay Russelli for all you have done to him and disappear," I said softly and got up.
I shook my head as I saw her tears roll down her cheek. "You are hopeless, if you are done with your drama's then see yourself out." I walked upstairs, no longer ready to watch her fake tears.
Yvonne POV.
I left Natasha's house with regrets, she was right, all I have to do now was leave, maybe that way Russeli and her can have a happy life, I disgusted her and Russeli hates me even more, I couldn't bear to watch them love each other either, so that was the only choice.
I got home and saw my father. He had been away on a long vacation and maybe he had not told me of his arrival to surprise me, but I was not in the right mood. I was sad and tired of all the lies and things I have kept hidden for the past four years.
"Yvonne are you okay?" My father asked as he looked at me, I quickly wiped off my tears, but they kept falling.
"Yes dad, I miss you." I used that as a cover-up, I looked at my father who didn't look so convinced, I still remember the first day my father told me about meeting Russeli, the joy I felt that day to finally meet my crush.
Even though Russeli was only using me, he still talked to me and he doesn't hate me as much as he does now. I was a little demon, still smiling and playing cool for the past four years with Russeli even when I had drugged him.
"What is bothering you?" My father asked me when we both sat down on the sofa, he looked at me with fatherly affection and the worry on his face was visible. "Tell me and I will help you in the way I can."
He had helped me meet Russeli, he had helped me talk to Russeli, he had also helped me to keep on living a dream that Russeli will look at me one day if I stick to his side. Can he also help me make Russeli love me and look at only me? Can he make Russeli hate Natasha?
I already know the answers to the question so I shook my head. "It is nothing." I sniffle. "I am only tired of indulging in other people's life, dad I am not a human being, I don't have a soul." The pain hits my heart, the flashbacks of what I have done to both Malinda and Russeli rushed in through my mind.
"Stop it, Yvonne." He held my hands and squeezed them gently. "Don't say that and talk to me in a way I can understand."
I exhaled softly and wiped off my tears. "Dad, it is time for me to stop, remember you promised me that if I am sick of it I should stop."
"What are you sick of?"
"I am sick of dating Russeli, I don't want to do it anymore, you would let me stop, won't you?" in the past, when my father set me up with Russeli, he had made a promise that he will give his consent if I want to stop, I don't want him to have a disagreement with Russeli's father over this.
"Why are you saying all these?" He looked at me with a perplexed gaze. "Did he wrong you? I can talk sense into him." In the past, my father had been the one taking care of my relationship and I was sure he was the one who made Russeli stay with me for those four years.
"No, dad. I did wrong, I don't think he can ever forgive me, I am the one who needs to be talked to, please let me stop." I buried my face in my palm and sob for a long while before looking up at my father again, he was speechless and I know he felt helpless in this situation.
"I want to leave to a faraway land where I know no one, I want to go start my life again and this time in a better way."
"Are you sure about this?" He asked me after a long silence and I nodded.
"Yes, and I will be leaving tomorrow."
My father, being an understanding man, embraced me, patting me lightly on my back. "You are free to return if you ever need to come back."
"Thank you, dad." I closed my eyes and let the silence that filled the room fill my head, this was the right thing to do.
I went to see Natasha at her apartment before boarding my flight. No matter what happened I still needed to see her, because she was the one who hurt me the most.
She was kind enough to let me in so I went straight to the point of why I was here. "I am leaving today," I spoke up but she scoffed.
"Are you here to act in one of those dramas?" She raised her brows. I wouldn't blame her for hating me or acting this way, if I were in her shoes, I wouldn't want to take another glance at me.
"Take good care of Russeli, although he had been with me in the past four years and had no memories of you, he never looked at me as a woman, not even a friend, he had only seen me as a business partner and nothing more." It was the truth. I had been the one forcing myself to him.
"What I want to tell you is he still loved you even when he had no memories of you, so stop holding back." I closed my eyes momentarily to hold back the tears that were lingering in my eyes.
"I love him also, but I am tired of interfering in your lives, that is why I am leaving with these last words. Take care of Russeli and love him as much as you can." I saw what looked like sympathy in Natasha's eyes, but it disappeared immediately.
"Are you trying to lecture me right now?" She scoffed and folded her arms.
"I am sorry for everything I did to you both. Goodbye Malinda Kristen." I turned to head to her door but halted when she called my name. "Yes." I looked at her.
"Take good care of yourself and stay healthy." She told me with a thin smile and my eyes became wet again. Honestly, I could see the reason why Russeli loved her, she was far different from me in all ways.
"You too." I walked out of the door, I had hurt a person who was this forgiven, I have hurt a kind soul like Malinda, right now I was only angry at myself for having a black heart.
I tried calling Russeli when I got to the airport, but he did not answer. I know he was angry at me, too bad that I was not going to see him again. Well, I don't deserve his forgiveness.
I had no other option but to send him a voice note. "Russeli Ryan it was nice to meet you and to..."