Now, walking to his room with a bitter feeling, Christian couldn't stop thinking about his sister, about what he had heard from her, about the tone she used when speaking to him, and even more so about the expression on her face, the strained look she had shown him for the first time.
His sister, who always seemed strong, unphased by anything, and able to endure everything since their parents' death, never showing him her difficulties, was now revealing a side of herself that was vulnerable.
The fact that this happened after he had made the decision to repay her and make her life easier didn't sit well with him at all.
So, he wanted to address the problem and solve it, as his sister was always his number one priority when doing things. But thinking of their current complex situation, he felt helpless, knowing that it wasn't the right time for it at all.
He felt that, at the moment, securing their safety - her safety - was still more important.
Her feelings were, of course, very important, but they needed to be alive first in order to take care of them, right?
With that thought lingering in his mind, he arrived in front of his locked room. A lock, perhaps the first time he had ever used it, an action driven by the fear that his sister might enter when he was out, only to find what had happened inside.
The trash bags, still filled with blood-stained blanket and other things, were still left there, after all.
Christian opened the door, threw the other trash bag in his hand inside, and kicked the first thing that appeared in front of him.
Even though he seemed to accept everything, as there was currently no solution, it didn't mean he was okay with the decision. He was frustrated and wanted to vent the emotions building inside him.
He felt like cursing everyone, not sparing even this fucked-up world that had put him through all these fucked up tests.
Seemingly trying to measure how much he could bear.
'Why does everything seem to be going in the wrong direction?'
'Why is everything becoming harder and harder now that he has the Idle system?'
'Was it not supposed to make his life easier?'
'Was it not supposed to help him solve his problems?'
'Then, why is everything becoming more complicated, more difficult recently?'
Christian had many doubts inside him, and now, all alone, it seemed his mental state was deteriorating, especially when remembering that it hadn't even been twenty-four hours, not even a day, since his last meeting with Eva, when things seemed to be constantly spiraling out of control.
He thought that maybe it was at that moment that everything had gone wrong, and for the first time, he felt like maybe he shouldn't have gotten involved with her.
Still, it was a fleeting thought, as while he didn't know the level of credibility of what she said, the thing she mentioned about it being his decision was right.
And if, even after getting his Idle System, he still couldn't make a decision without regretting it, then what was it for?
While the conversation he had with his sister, if it could even be called one, since it seemed so one-sided, only made things even harder for him.
Christian still felt like it had opened his eyes, revealing things he hadn't noticed before, even if just a little.
He hadn't been able to vent much in the end, though, and despite being filled with countless thoughts, he knew he still needed to take a shower for now.
He intended to take a cold shower at first, but the sticky feeling of sweat clinging to the fabric of his clothes, now covered in dust and dirt, made him change his mind.
If he didn't use hot water, he didn't feel like he'd be able to scrub all the dirt off his skin, after all.
Taking his time to scrub every inch of his skin carefully, Christian had nearly finished. But, the hot water, relaxing as it was, started to make him feel drowsy, and realizing he couldn't continue like that, he finally switched to cold water.
So, while shivering slightly from the cold water, especially after the sudden transition from hot to cold, Christian hoped that it would help cool his head, calm his boiling emotions, and extinguish the drowsiness creeping over him.
Having finished the shower, feeling quite refreshed, Christian now sat at his desk, the computer screen in front of him.
He didn't dive into work immediately but began sorting his thoughts, as so many things had happened since yesterday.
If he were to pinpoint when things started going wrong, Christian still couldn't help but think back to that moment yesterday when he decided to try and make things more clear between him and Eva.
The two choices, now that he thought about them more carefully, seemed even more suspicious to Christian.
He had naturally also entertained some thoughts about them since he first heard them, but knowing that with time, he could investigate further and find the answers, he hadn't bothered to think too deeply about them at that moment.
Moreover, one of them was that she could answer everything. So, Christian thought there might be just some kind of inconvenience in her telling him all of it, but no more than that. The fact that she could, if she wanted, share everything with him meant that the extent of her situation wasn't that serious.
But now, with everything that had happened, and when he linked what she said about how she wanted him to look at things about herself, it started to make him question everything more deeply.
As that could mean there were some kind of issue in her circumstances that she couldn't solve, which was what he arrived at.
But then, remembering her wealth, a wealth that was all her own, not from her family or anyone else, he couldn't help but doubt once more, as he felt like something wasn't adding up.
Actually, no, there are still two missing links: her family and Olivia's father.
So, could it be that there is a problem with one of them? Or perhaps both?
While Christian had many hypotheses, feeling that it wasn't the time to dwell on them any further, he ultimately decided to move on.
As for calling or meeting her? He didn't know if he should, if it was the right time, and felt indecisive in the end. Still, while he might not trust her completely, he still thought that she wasn't one to harm him. So, he planned to hear things properly from her side, just not now, but later.
Then, he focused on the most important thing for now: the assassin, and who had hired him.
Until now, he had been linking the assassin to Eva, but could there be a possibility that it wasn't related to her?
After all, there are extraordinary powers out there. So, could his hacking attempts, or the records of what he was doing, somehow, have been discovered by someone else with such a power?
Because Christian had no idea about the true nature of the extraordinary powers, he felt stuck at this point.
So, while he still leaned more toward it having something to do with Eva, with the people around her, he also couldn't completely deny the possibility that it might not be related to her.
Arriving at this point, Christian felt that he was making too many hypotheses. He would find out in the end, just after some time.
Still, knowing that he needed to start somewhere, Christian decided that it would be best to begin with the assassin's side.
Although it might take more time, as relying solely on the phone he had discovered on the assassin might not yield any useful information. Therefore, he might end up needing to find out where the assassin came from through other means.
He still calculated that this approach would be more effective than going through Eva, only to discover that she might not be involved in the situation at all.
Then, moving on, Christian turned his thoughts to the fight he had with the assassin.
More like his response to the assassin's surprise attack, actually, and analyzing it carefully this time, Christian, who initially thought he had a significant advantage over the assassin, arrived at a different conclusion this time.
The advantage was there nonetheless, but it was not to the extent he had initially believed. After all, if it had truly been as he thought at first, then he shouldn't have injured his hand, even with the element of surprise.
And the surprise element from his side later, that he was unexpectedly strong, played an even more important role in turning the tables, or so he now thought.
Additionally, the fact that the other person was likely not specialized in head-on battles or close combat using fists and knives could also be another reason, or so he believed.