"If you don't like where you are. MOVE. You are not a tree."
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Heaven shouldn't have eavesdropped. Now, after knowing why Zarin went to stay with her grandfather, the sickness and nausea she felt hit her ten times harder than before. She could barely breathe or stand on her legs, so she crouched, focusing on her breathing while she listened to the rest of the conversation.
Both Klara and Roshan felt ashamed and guilty as they spoke to her parents. Klara's sad voice went straight to Heaven's heart. She had never heard her sound like that before. She was always this strong woman, who even with her loving nature was straight with them about what they needed to do. She was a woman Heaven looked up too and Roshan was like a father figure to her.
Now their son and her childhood friend left because of her, and because of stupid promises that her grandfather made.
Oh Lord! What was he trying to do?
Heaven couldn't listen anymore. She felt her stomach tighten, pushing what was left in her stomach up to her throat. She needed to throw up. Standing up, she went wobbled back to her room and then let herself fall into her bed. The room around her was spinning, and her eyes become heavy before darkness swallowed her.
When she opened her eyes again, Kate was looming over her. "My Lady." Her voice seemed distant at the beginning, but then slowly became clearer. "Are you alright?" She asked.
Heaven sat up and rubbed her eyes. "Yes. I am fine."
She looked around and felt at ease when she saw that it was still day. She had things to take care of.
"Kate, I need to be alone." She told her.
Kate gazed at her with worry, but then nodded and left.
Heaven stood up and made sure she was steady on her feet before walking out to her garden. She inhaled the fresh breeze and sat outside for a while, just trying not to think of anything for a moment. Once she was calm and fully awake, she allowed the horrible thoughts to flood her mind.
She knew what she had to do. She would call her grandfather and ask him straight what he wanted, and that she had no plan to join his cause. Ever!
But first she needed to see Zarin. She needed to talk some sense into him. But how would she call him? She would still have to call her grandfather first.
Standing up, she just called out loud, "Grandpa!" Like a crazy woman.
"Grandpa! Grandpa! Lucifer!"
After waiting for a while, she thought this wasn't working and decided to go back to her room. When she turned around, she was startled to find her grandfather standing behind her.
"Heaven." He smiled at her.
"Grandpa!" She didn't realize how much she had missed him before this.
He looked just like she remembered and it was hard to believe in this moment that he was the one causing her all the pain and worry she was going through.
Strangely, this time he didn't open his arms for her like he used to do, and Heaven was thankful for that. She didn't know if she would feel comfortable enough to hug him.
"Where is Zarin?" She asked, getting straight to the point.
"Zarin is where he wants to be." He replied simply.
"Let him go." She said. "Whatever you promised him will never happen."
"I am not holding him against his will, Heaven. Zarin chose to stay with me and I made him no promises."
"I don't believe you." Heaven said, shaking her head. "Why would he leave his parents just to stay with you if you didn't promise him anything?"
"Maybe he found a place where people don't judge him." It felt like he was referring to her.
Heaven wanted to laugh out loud. Now he was going to pretend he cared for Zarin, and she didn't.
"What do you want? What are you trying to do?" She asked. "Why is it so important I join your cause? You have many children."
His expression changed and some unknown emotion passed through his eyes.
"Because I see things that others don't see. I see that you have a special gift that will make you a great ruler one day. I want someone like you by my side." He explained.
"Don't waste your time. I will never join your cause." She told him.
Slowly, a smile curved his lips. "You will change your mind later." He said with confidence.
Heaven wondered what made him so confident.
"I will never change my mind. This is where I belong. With my family, so stop putting nightmares in my mind."
He gazed at her with a serious expression for a moment before nodding. "Alright." He said. "I will stop putting them in your mind, but I will put them somewhere."
Now he was showing his true colors and trying to frighten her. Heaven decided to not show him any fear. She told him what she had to say and now she wouldn't speak to him any further. He would only get inside her head.
"If you are not holding Zarin against his will, I want to talk to him."
"I will let him know." He said and then vanished, probably knowing she had no intention to keep talking to him.
Heaven just stood there, waiting for Zarin to come and see her. Her first thought was to punch him in the face and then scold him, but she decided to be smarter than that and not let her emotions rule her actions. Doing that might only distance him further.
She had to be smart like her grandfather, even though she didn't know how. A part of her was still very upset and hurt after what he did to her, and the fact that he went to her grandfather to bargain about her made her even angrier.
While telling herself to stay calm, Zarin materialised in front of her, looking like his usual self. Except, there was no smile or even a hint of happiness on his face.
"If you called me to convince me to come, then I'll just leave." He said before she could even speak.
All the effort she put into calming herself down was gone now because his attitude.
"Why do you think I called you otherwise? To congratulate you for joining my grandfather, who is making my life miserable. Don't tell me he is trying to help, just like you say you are trying to protect me."
His gaze hardened and she could see him clench his jaw.
Heaven took a deep breath. She didn't want to chase him away. "Your parents are very sad. Have you thought about how your absence affects them?"
He turned his gaze away from her. She could see that there was a part of him that was hurting for leaving his parents. She was thankful for that.
"They told me to make a life for myself. That is what I am doing." He said.
"And your sister… she will miss you. All of us will miss you." She was going to work on the guilt that he felt.
He looked back at her, so many emotions swirling in his eyes.
"I thought you were angry with me?" He said.
"I am, but no matter how angry I am with you or was, I wished nothing but good things for you."
He shook his head. "Heaven, I am not coming back here."
"Could you at least come to see me sometimes?" She asked.
She would slowly convince him to come back.
"Yes."