Vincent’s POV
The first time that I met Sophie, her beauty immediately stunned me. That’s also the reason I kissed her that time. And she was so surprised I couldn’t stop smiling whenever I remember how bold she was to act like that in front of me.
She was the very first woman who did that to me. The very first woman who had the audacity to slap me on my cheek. She was just fortunate because aside from she’s pretty as fuck, her lips tasted like cherry too. I couldn’t take her off my mind since that day and I was still planning on how I could get her to sleep with me the next time that we’ll meet.
But then I never met her again until one night when his father, Laurens, offered his own daughter to me as collateral to his debt. I got surprised to see her again, and that made me feel excited. I was excited to play with her and use her to satisfy my own selfish needs.
All I wanted was to have her as my property, as someone to entertain me. I didn’t even get mad when she said that she likes someone else because I was never in love with her. I only see her as one of those women I had slept with.
She started living with me, and I played chess with her every single night just so I could dominate her slowly. It actually excites me whenever we play and I don’t even know why. Her presence has changed my whole world. I just caught myself smiling like a total idiot whenever she feels annoyed with me or whenever she acts childishly.
And that night when I had sex with her, I admit I only did that because I was so hurt when I saw Monica. I wanted to erase Monica in my mind, I wanted to hurt her and prove to myself that I was already able to forget her.
And I succeeded. Because that particular night, Sophie was able to conquer me fully. I thought I was the one who will conquer her, but the truth is, she conquered me. I couldn’t accept that fact, I thought that was just my technique to pretend that I was able to forget about my first love but then…
*FLASHBACK*
“What about this one? Can you answer this one?” Lance asked Sophie while pointing to a certain part of the book that they were using to study.
I was just pretending to be reading a book here in the library because I wanted to see how Lance would teach Sophie. Sophie even looked so happy when Lance arrived. Why did she even ask my brother to study with her when I can just teach her too?
“No, I actually don’t know how to answer that yet…” Sophie said while scratching the back of her head.
Wait, did she just act cutesy in front of Lance?!
“Really? Then let me just teach you.”
“Thank you!”
Lance leaned closer to Sophie while teaching the problem while Sophie also went closer to him, making their faces almost touching each other. My brows furrowed.
What the hell are they doing?
Do they really have to be that close while studying?
“This is how you do this, okay? You just have to divide it here, then multiply it by its quotient.”
“S-Sorry? Can you repeat that again? I didn’t quite understand it.” Sophie said while pouting at him.
Lance laughed then he pinched both of Sophie’s cheeks. “You really are so cute, Sophie~”
My hands balled into fists as I stood up. They both got surprised and looked at me confusingly. “What the hell do you guys think you’re doing?”
“Huh?”
“Lance, is that how you really treat your student? Do you really have to touch her like that? As far as I know, you’re not allowed to touch your student, right?” I said.
Lance shrugged. “W-Well, yeah.”
“Then why are you touching Sophie?”
“Huh? You mean why I pinched her cheeks? Oh, I’m sorry. I just find her really adorable that’s why I unconsciously did that. I didn’t really mean to touch her in a malicious way.”
“It’s alright. Lance is my friend too and pinching my cheeks doesn’t mean anything anyway.” Sophie said innocently.
And that made me realize how stupid I just looked.
I heaved a sigh. “Fine. Go ahead and continue what you’re doing. I swear I’m not going to interrupt you, just make it quick.”
“Thanks.”
They continue studying while flirting with each other, I couldn’t help but feel irritated. How dare Sophie let Lance be that close to her when she’s already married?! She’s really pissing me off.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
And that the same day Sophie and I fought. She got mad because of what I said. I said that it’s hurting my ego whenever I see her flirting with some other guy when the truth is, I wanted to tell her that yes, I was fucking jealous. But I didn’t.
I would never tell her that I love her because surely, that would only make her leave me. Everyone that I love always ends up hating me, just like my parents, just like my father who left me.