"Well I am okay with that,you win, you got me, I hope you will find another Valerie"She replied, tartly interrupting me.
She walked towards the extreme of her room where a wine rack was situated. My gaze followed her as I stood helplessly at the same spot.
She took a bottle from the stuffed wine race and a glass.
"Do you need a glass?" She asked and forced a smile at me.
"I'm good,"I replied calmly, my eyes staring at her intensely.
"Yeah right"she shrugged and poured hers to the brim and drank all in one go, she poured more and gulped down.
I eyed her impatiently.
"Is there anything else you would like to discuss with me?"I said softly.
"Damn you Daniel, damn you!"She snapped back, it seemed like she had enough, my last statement drove her crazy, the wine must have contributed to her breakdown too.
"I don't want to ever see you again! Get lost loser! and get the hell out of my room".
I made no move or even thought of leaving,I just stare at her.I knew she was troubled and couldn't accept it. Does it have anything to do with him?I am not yet certain but if I eventually leave this minute,she will surely drink herself to death and spill everything to anyone who gives her attention.
I drew a deep breath and walked over to take the bottle of wine from her.
"I think that you've had enough".
I said and grabbed the bottle from her.
She cursed out loud.
"Give me my drink, it's not as boring as your sex".
I sighed and grabbed her two hands to control her from throwing more tantrums.
"You have something you want to tell me?"I asked again.
"Hmmhmm"she shook her head with her brows arched tightly like a baby.
Struggling with me, she tried to bite me so I could let her go.
"You will get yourself drunk"I scolded.
"Well why do you care?"She snapped loudly at him then broke down in tears this time, hitting him on the chest.
"Whoever you are, whatever you did to me, get lost and leave me alone, my life was all great without you, you ... and you what the hell did you do to ..”
I swallowed the rest of her words with a deep kiss, so gentle yet so intense that it melted her into submission. As soon as I released her, I used his thumb to clean the tears rolling down her cheeks.
With a compassionate look on my face,I cupped her face in my large palms and stared at her directly into her eyes as though I Wanted to pave a way into her heart as well.
"What did I do to you? You don't know the hell you did to me Noona, I can't spend a day without having thoughts of you owning each breath that I took, I can't continue denying it, I love you..I love you..for real, I don't care about any of the reasons you feed on to your fear".
"Then make love to me,so you can leave in the morning before I open my eyes! Yeah you think I will believe your bullshit!"She replied desperately.
I felt his gut tightened, I felt guilty and wondered how much I have hurt her without realizing it but still I wanted her to understand there's more to my feelings than to have sex with her love all the time,I am willing to offer her so much more.
I gently pressed my forehead to hers.
"Noona, I want you like I've never wanted any woman in my entire life”.
I said.
“And you don't know how much it drives me crazy each time I wake up to see you are gone, damn it ,I felt as though I was some toy to you, you never cared about my own emotions, you must have said whatever she is a bitch,you are a good man Daniel,but to me you choose to make me feel like a bitch I am supposed to be”she sobbed.
My eyes darkened, he could see the awareness burning in her eyes.
“I love you Noona”.
"I...but I .. don't love you".
She said and stepped away from me.
"I know you do, you just can't accept it"I replied tightly over ragged breaths,trying not to show the hurt of his shattered heart following her statement.
"No you don't know. The main reason I kept coming back is because of the dick okay,yes I am a bitch I know"She replied heavily, as sobs caught in-between.
I grabbed her by the wrist and pulled her closer to me.I had tried to force myself to endure the urge to kiss this woman and make love to her right from when I saw her in that lingerie but now I am at my limits.
I kissed her again this time,it was so intense and hot that I got lost in it.