“You should feel sorry for yourself, not me,” she said, then smirk at me.
One more word, I will kill you b*tch!
“Yana, you should leave, for now. I’ll talk to her for a minute then wait for me to contact you.” He even combs that woman’s hair.
“Fine!” she picked up her clothes, started getting dressed. She smirked at me before leaving.
The tears started to drip that I had been holding back.
“Elyse-- “ he gazes at me, his expression guarded and unreadable.
My teary eyes stared at Daren. “H-How could you do this to me, Daren? Am I not enough for you? I’m doing my best to be a good wife and a mother, but why the f**k did you do this to me!!!”
“I... I don’t love you anymore, Elyse. I realized that I’m not staying by your side because I love you, it’s because I need to, for Elizabeth. Only for my daughter. I am trying to love you again, to be happy, but I can’t.”
“But now, I can’t stay with you anymore. I can only be a father of our daughter, but not your f**king husband. I need freedom, Elyse! But because of you--“
“Freedom? What do you mean by freedom? I’m letting you do what you want, Darren! Was not that enough for you? And lastly, are you saying you only married me to our daughter and not because you love me?!”
“Unfortunately, yes!”
“What the f**k! Daren! We’ve been in a relationship for many years, we’re married for many years and you're gonna say that all those years you don’t love me anymore?!!”
“Haven’t you ever been happy with me? All the smiles and your sweetness to me, you’re just pretending? Everything that you showed me is fake, Daren?”
“I was happy, but as time goes on, my feelings for you disappear. You’re always busy with work, we don’t have time together anymore because you’re always tired! I don’t even remember when is the last time we had s*x! I feel like you love your job more than me...”
“Busy? Seriously? What are we going to eat if I don’t work?! I’m looking for a way to give you time! Even though I’m very tired from work, I still cooked for you and Elizabeth. I’m still doing my responsibility as a mother and I am trying to be a good wife to you!”
“Well, do s*x matter to you a lot Daren?! Is married all about s*x for you? Do you want us to have s*x every day so that we can prove that we love each other? What is more important to you s*x or love... s*x or me?” I’m trying to calm down my voice because Elizabeth might hear me.
I don’t want her to know what kind of father she has!
“So, are you blaming me for everything? Are you saying I’m lazy? That I should work instead of you?!” he asks, raising his eyebrows at me.
“Yes! Because you are the man!! Every time I come home, you’re always playing video games! Aren’t you? You’re no longer a child for those things, Daren! The one who doesn’t have time is you, but I do try to understand you all the time. Didn’t you even think about our daughter before you did something like that?”
Didn’t you even think about me too?
“If you told me before that you didn’t love me, I wouldn’t force you! Remember that I’m not a dog who will follow you whenever you leave! I don’t care how many years we’ve been together and how many years we’ve loved each other. I don’t want to be stupid to someone like you!” I can’t stop myself from glaring at him.
“Then fine. Let’s get divorced! But I’ll take Elizabeth with me--“ I cut him off to speak because I immediately punched him in the cheek.
“Damn!”
“You?” I ask and smirk.
“You can’t keep an eye on her even if you’re just at home! Then you say you’ll take my daughter with you? I won’t allow you to take my child! You should kill me first before that happens.” I said coldly.
“She’s also my daughter Elyse!!”
Yeah, I know. I’m not stupid, dumb!
“I’ll let you visit Elizabeth. I’m going to stop you if you want to visit her, but you can’t take her away from me,” I muttered and wiped my tears on the cheek.
“Fine! I won’t force you!” he said, then started getting dressed. “And about the question you ask early. Yes! S*x is more important to me. I need it! A relationship won’t long last without having s*x with their partners, Elyse.”
“I’m not going to sleep here,” he murmurs before leaving.
That jerk! His face is thick! Those days when we’re not doing it... is he doing that to someone else? When did he start cheating on me!
“Then don’t! No one will be going to stop you jerk!”
We’ve known each other for 14 years,
we started being friends until he started courting me until I say yes to him.
We dreamed together, but then I got pregnant. I thought my life would just end up, that my life is already ruined because I got pregnant. But then I thought that the only thing that changed is that I only got pregnant but it doesn’t mean I can’t keep going to school. That won’t stop me from graduating high school and college. Getting pregnant can’t stop me from achieving my dreams.
I achieved my dream to start my own company. But Daren gives up on his dreams and he chooses to stay at home and take care of our child.
I was the only one who works instead of him.
I wiped away my tears and sighed. I suddenly remembered what my Mommy told me before.
‘A woman should never cry over a man. Because real man won’t make you cry, if that man loves you he won’t make you cry. If you’re going to cry, it’s not because he hurt you, it’s because he made you happy and that’s what they called tears of joy.’
For the first time, he made me cry, and he hurt me this much. He said he doesn’t love me anymore, then fine! I’m not going to waste my precious time on someone like him, he’s not worth it so, I shouldn’t be crying to that jerk... but I can’t help it, all those years that we’ve been together, I can’t just forget those memories because I want to. Brain can forget, but the heart doesn’t.