"Ulysses, come," I called to Ulysses who immediately jumped up and approached me. I looked at Ashley who was smiling but there was sadness in her eyes. Maybe he thought of Charles.
I look at Ulysses and kissed his eyes.
"Move --- on," Eugene said like he is coughing so I looked at him wickedly.
"Nyanya," I said but he only laugh.
"Baby, where did you go?" Ley asked Ulysses while slicing the cake.
"Girls hunting, Mom," Uly answered directly so Ley stopped what she was doing.
"What?"
"Yes, Dada said so when I grew up there are a lot of girls around me. Like, daddy Hunter, daddy Vince and dada Eugene, a lot of babes." Ulysses said while making a handsome sign, so Ley hit Eugene with a bread knife.
"What did you teach him?" Ley asked but Eugene just laughed.
"Mommy, dada says I'm lucky because I have a lot of Daddy. But I'm luckier if I have a lot of Mommy." Ley shook his head as I laughed.
"No one will gonna like with your Dada, so don't expect to have a lot of Mommy," I said and rolled my eyes to Eugene.
"Then, why did Mommy used to like dada?" Ulysses asked me.
"Because she's bitc---" I looked at Eugene and Ley who were both looking at me badly. Ley tightened the grip on the bread knife. Eugene was holding onto his slippers.
"Go on Agatha," Ley said while her eyes are widened.
"Spill it, Agatha," Eugene give me a warning look.
"Bitc, bitctiful. I mean beautiful. My tongue suddenly twist," I said to Ulysses who smiled at me as well.
"I want to have a sister, aunt Agatha because I have already the youngest twin brother. Mommy said it can't be right now because Daddy Hunter is out of the country and he will take too much time. Dada can't be with Mommy anymore. How about you and dada?"
"Huh?" I was suddenly swallowed up by what Ulysses said. "What you mean me?" I ask.
"You and Dada, make a baby. You don't have a boyfriend, right?" Duh, no need. Never again, TSS! I guess that asshole used an energy drink. He cannot feel tired and can make a lot of positions until he is satisfied, or maybe he just can't say no to my charisma.
"My God, Ulysses. How did you know about that?" Ley looks worried.
"From dada, go ahead Aunt Agatha, I will support you." I couldn't really answer and I just stared into Ulysses's eyes. They are both naughty and I miss him even more.
"Baby, It will gonna happen. Your aunt Agatha already has a loved one that's already in heaven. She's just preparing to follow there," Eugene said while laughing.
"Really?" I raised an eyebrow at Eugene then faced Ulysses.
"Yes, Uly, I'm planning to take your dada there."
"My pleasure, Agatha, which heaven do you want? The heaven that has no going back or to heaven with pleasure that we love to come back."
"Never mind Eugene, if you're the only one with me, better I will pleasure myself."
"Never mind or be mine? Don't worry Agatha, I can take you there, as long as we go to heaven with pleasure. I missed going there with you." Fuck Eugene, did he think it's funny?
"Wow! Can I come?" Ulysses asked excitedly while Ley is getting angrier.
"No, baby. It's for adults only. When you grow up you can be there. Come on Agatha, I am waiting," Eugene said while laughing.
"You ------ mother------Ulysses, can you go with Nana first," Ley said to Ulysses.
"But Mommy, we're talking about heaven."
"Ulysses, you can't go either of the two heavens. So please, go with nana first and adults will talks, ok?"
"Okay. But Mommy, have you been there in heaven they say?" We all looked at Ley, while she has already red face with anger.
"Go, baby,"
"Mommy please,"
"Yeah, in heaven with pleasure." It is hard to deal to have a naughty son like Ulysses. Always curious and talkative like his father.
"Really, who's with you?" Eugene held back a laugh as he looked at Ley.
"Ulysses," Ley called softly.
"Please, Mommy, tell me. Dad, daddy Vince or daddy Hunter?" Ley couldn't answer and was obviously frustrated. But Ulysses still wanted to know the truth so Eugene answered.
"All baby. Actually, that's where your daddy Vince made you. In heaven with pleasure. Now go to nana and we'll just talk," Eugene said while laughing.
"Ok, I can't wait to grow up, so I can go to heaven too. Bye, everyone." Then Ulysses ran inside the mansion.
"Ouch!" We all looked at Ley and Eugene when Ley hit Eugene on the head with a saucer.
"You're a shameless asshole. That's what you're teaching to your son?" Then she pinched Eugene's arm and he tried to avoid it when Ley suddenly confronted me.
"You too, if both of you want to fuck go in the visiting room. Not you talk nonsense in front of my son. My God, you're influencing my young son's mind. Maybe one day he'll just come home and will tell me 'that Mommy, I have a girlfriend and she's pregnant, because Dada said, I'll shoot inside.' You're a shit, Eugene, I'm really going to shoot you in the cemetery."
"Be thankful Ley if that what really happens. What if he will go home and say, 'Mommy, meet my boyfriend. We're going to live together because she's already filled my wombs.' What do you choose?"
Ley didn't answer and she just raised an eyebrow. "You can't answer? I am not against if he will grow up as gay, but, Nah, he's so handsome like to be one. Let him grew like a real man surrounded by a woman, same to his Daddies as long as he is responsible. 'Isn't it Agatha?" I just raised an eyebrow at him.
Fuck you, you're just yummy, but I didn't miss your biggy----nothing.
I look at Ashley who is looking away and doesn't care about what is happening. We were all having fun but she was just quiet.
I don’t know how to talk to her to at least ease the weight on her heart. I had no idea what I should do to help her.
If only the pain was shared. The day I found out the truth I will take from Ashley all the pain she was carrying so that she could somehow rest.
I approached her and set beside her.
"Hey, something wrong?"
"No, I just didn't think of Charles," she said then looked at Ulysses. "I wish he was like Ulysses if I hadn't been sad while he is with me." She started to cry.
"Shh, that's ok, it's not your fault."
"Thank you, Agatha, thank you for coming back."
"I'm sorry, I wasn't to comfort you." Then I wiped away her tears and mine. "Instead of understanding you, I judge you quickly."
"I understand."
"I'm am afraid, Ashley," I said and sighed then smiled at her. "When I found out the truth in the hospital, I was in so much pain. I didn't know what to do. If I cried, or if I will run, or if I will keep quiet. I couldn't imagine the pain and sacrifices you've been through. I can't imagine everything."
"Agatha,"
"And I am more scared for Clifford, what if he finds out the truth?"
"I don't know. That's why I don't want to tell you the truth. That's why I hid because I know how much both of you love me. I took the pain because I don't want to see you suffer. I will feel twice as much as seeing you sad because of me."
"Ashley, I'm sorry. There's no ending of saying sorry for not being able to help you."
"Nah, I should be the one to apologize to you, because you're hurting because of me."
"No Ash, not now, not ever, as long you are in my side, I won't feel hurt again,"
"Thanks, Agatha, thank you so much."