Chapter Twelve
Sabrina’s POV
Why?
When Xander went out of the bar. I quickly asked suggested that we go to a hotel and start our business.
But why?
We’ve been making out, into foreplay for a while, but something is wrong!
“Kiss me more, damn it!” I demanded to Xander.
He did. He deepened the kiss, he’s been showering me with expert kisses, expert fingers, but I can’t feel myself being mind-blown! Fuck, orgasm is even out of reach for me!
My body is not reacting!
Why?!
“Stop!” I pushed him and covered my face, frustrated.
This is part of my plan, so why is my body reacting like this?
Xander gave way and stopped, slowly sliding to lay on my side as he sigh.
“What’s wrong?” he asked softly.
I exhaled heavily and covered my nakedness with the blanket. Xander laid there, unashamed of his bare body.
I never knew I will be facing this weird… circumstance in regard of steam and sex.
I’m naked, making out with Xander, actually just had foreplay with him, readying myself to finally have sex but my core is not even throbbing!
I’m so into it! I really am! Xander is so good at this but my body seemed to be numbed, I can’t feel any pleasure at all!
My body can’t feel any friction, any spark.
I’m not even getting wet!
With my frustration, a tear rolled down my eyes and I was quick to wipe it off.
“I-I’m sorry.”
“Hey…” Xander touched my wrist and moved my hand away from my face. He moved on to continue wiping my tears. “If you’re not ready, it’s okay. I can wait, you don’t need to force yourself and rush this. I’m not after your body, Sabrina.”
Xander pulled me close to his chest and embraced me tight.
I bit my lip so hard that it might bled any moment!
“But I am ready!”
“I can see you’re not, baby.” he chuckled. “And it’s okay. I want you, and this is not necessary.”
But it is! I have a plan!
I am swayed, all right? I am touched by his kind words but…
But…
All my head has now is my curses towards Yael Domingo.
And even if these are wrath for Yael, it is still a fact that I’m thinking about him when I shouldn’t!
“I don’t know what’s wrong, Xander.”
“You wanna talk about it?”
I nodded. “Its frustrating. I know I’m a virgin but it shouldn’t hurt when you play me with your fingers, right? I do masturbate and its not this painful.”
“You’re not wet, baby. Not even a bit.” he chuckled. “You’re hurting my ego, I think my charm has no effects on you. I can’t even turn you on.”
“No!”
I moved away to look at his eyes.
I know I shouldn’t comfort him with words but what he said sounded wrong in my ears.
“It’s not your fault! It’s just--”
Yeah, right.
Like I can disclose my condition to him.
Xander chuckled again. “I’m just kidding, Sab. We’ll try again next time.” he said and leaned to give me a soft kiss on my forehead.
I was again inside his embrace and I can’t remember how I easily passed out.
**
We spent the night together and Xander drove me home after breakfast.
“Do you want to stay a bit? My brother shouldn’t be home by now.” I asked.
Spencer was busy with his business so I’m sure he is still out. I didn’t receive any calls from him, anyway.
“Baby, I might misinterpret your words.” Xander shook his head.
I flushed upon realizing how I sound!
“I don’t mean ‘that’ thing, Xander! You’re so dirty-minded.” I rolled my eyes.
Xander laughed loudly.
“I’m just kidding.” he said with a smile and turned off the car’s engine.
We headed inside our house with Xander following behind me.
After unlocking the front door, I was welcomed by my brother’s disheveled hair and suit, in his hand was a cup of coffee.
“Mornin’” he greeted in a soft and tired voice, looking at me with his usual sleepy morning eyes.
I felt Xander’s warmth on my back which means he showed himself to my brother’s vision.
Spencer looked past me, to Spencer, before arching his brow and moving his eyes back to me.
“A Xouliva in my house.” his voice turned stern and I had to roll my eyes. This brother of mine always act so protective but I know his facade only last a few seconds. Spencer is always the ‘friendly’ type and I’m the aloof one.
“Good morning, Mr. Montezar.” Xander said, walking forward and extender his arm to my brother. “Xander Xouliva.”
Spencer laughed, smirking after.
=_=
I told you, his serious fatherly act won’t last that fast.
“Just call me Spencer. It’s really weird being called like my father’s.” he said as he reaches for Xander’s hand.
“Xander is my boyfriend, Spence.” I said and smirked as I saw my brother’s eyes widened.
“Oh, for how long?” he grinned.
I rolled my eyes. Spencer laughed hard.
“I’m just kidding, Xander. Come and join us for breakfast.”
We walked towards the dining room, Spencer in front of us. I smiled at Xander who does not seem to be offended by what my brother said. Which was good, actually.
“I’m sorry, my brother can be a cracked nut sometimes.”
“It’s cool. I also have the same question, though.” he whispered.
I rolled my eyes and decided to not respond to that.
“Specially now that I can’t turn you on.”
“Shh!”
Xander laughed and shook his head, amused by my reaction. Spencer and I are open with topics like this but hell no that we’re talking about it in front of another specie.
Xander said that in a whisper, and its not like Spencer will hear that but still, you know.
We started eating breakfast. Again. I think I only had three bites of toast, I’m too full but Xander ate well. Good to be a guy, huh? Such appetite and having a fit body is surely making me jealous.
**
“Thank you for the meal.” Xander said once we’re done.
“You are welcome here, for as long as Sab keep you.” Spencer said in a grin.
“Well, I hope I could last for a week, at least.”
Spencer laughed.
“So you knew her reputation with men, huh? Good luck, then.”
I rolled my eyes when Xander grinned at me.
“By the way, you’re friends with Yael, right? Yael Domingo?”
I looked at Spencer and his gaze was focused on Xander. The fact that he is trying to avoid my eyes only meant one thing: I’m busted and he found out that I am up to something.
Xander straightened on his chair, clearing his throat. “Yes.”
“Oh, how is he now?”
Xander looked at me, as if checking my reaction that ‘his’ name was brought up in the table.
“Yael just taken over their family business, as I know.”
“Which one? Father’s or mother’s?”
“Both, actually.”
“Oh.” Spencer spaced out for a moment before chuckling. “I’ll leave you two, now. I haven’t sleep a blink.” Spencer said and stood up. Xander did the same.
“I’ll get going now, Spencer. Thank you for inviting me for breakfast.”
“Alright. You are welcome to come back for as long as my sister keeps you.” he laughed.
“I’ll send you out.” I said.
**
“What’s your plan for the day?” Xander asked when we reached his car.
“I have an appointment after lunch and then I’m free.”
“May I know where you are going?”
I squinted my eyes. “Playing the boyfriend role well, huh?”
Xander chuckled and shook his head. “Fine. Take care, then.”
I grinned. It’s good that he knew his place, not going out of boundaries.
“You, too.”
Xander leaned in to give me a quick kiss before sliding inside his car and taking off.
I sighed and headed inside the house.
“You spend the night with your flavor of the half-week, did you two do it?”
I almost jumped when Spencer suddenly spoke. He was leaning on the wall, beside the doorway.
“How was it?” he continued.
“Nothing happened.”
“But you try? What? Spill, sister.”
I rolled my eyes, crossing my arms in my chest as I face my annoying brother.
“I’ll talk about this with Dr. Goose, okay? Ask him. It’s creeping me out when we talk about this.”
Spencer shrugged. “Sounds fair. When will you see your doctor?”
“Now. I’ll just freshen up a bit.”
“Okay, I’ll talk to him once I woke up. Tell Dr. Goose to spare me some time before sunset, okay?”
“’kay!”
**
“What do you think, Doc?” I asked after telling him my story of what happened between me and Xander. “Maybe I’m asexual, or something?”
Dr. Goose sighed. “Sexual tension is not a body reaction alone, Sabrina. Your mind must be denying your partner, what can you say?”
“I’m not thinking that way at that moment.”
“Then, its in your subconscious.” he sighed again, and leaned on his seat. “I think my theory is still right, Sabrina. You should go and try the sexual activity with that ‘one’.”
I fell silent.
If only that was easy like how he says it.
“If you still don’t believe me, try comparing your reaction when you’re thinking about that special someone and when you’re trying to go downtown with another guy. Have you met with that man again?”
I gulped.
“Yes.”
“And?”
“I-I reacted. I mean, my body.”
“Did you get wet, Sabrina?”
I closed my eyes shut, nodding my head furiously.
“See? It’s not just thoughts of him that making you react but physical connection, as well. There must be something, anything, like curiosity that you have towards this man that’s making your sexual tensions imbalanced.”
“I still suggest for you to try satisfying that curiosity first and find out if there’s some changes after.”
I bit my lip.
“But I don’t--” I sighed. “You really don’t think I’m asexual, Doc?”
Dr. Goose chuckled.
“Ms. Montezar, I’ve been in this field for fifteen years and a half. Asexual person don’t have a problem like yours. They don’t dream to be sexually satisfied and they don’t care if they won’t have a taste of it. In which was different in your case.”
I nodded slowly.
“Okay.”
“I’ll prescribe you the same meds…”
I went out of the hospital with a doomed feeling after.
This is so frustrating.
Can’t I be happy without having Yael mixed in my life?
Technically, he messed up with my life so why would I need him to fix me? How ironic my life can be?
Tss.
I was about to head to my car when I saw a familiar car not too far away.
It’s engine was open, and he must be inside.
This fucker! Is he following me?!
Why is Yael’s car in the same hospital that I am?