Yuhi didn't say anything and picked her up, instead of returning to the room he brought her to the couch. Yuhi pulled the blanket around her and kept patting her back.
"Yuhi, the food."
"It is okay, we can eat the rest later."
"I'm sorry, I'm just-" Sumire didn't know how to explain her current mood. But now that her feelings are out in the open, she couldn't stop shaking.
'I was frightened? I was frightened that I would loose Yuhi?' If Hino didn't come into the room then she would have broken down. She was only able to remain calm because there was another person there. But the moment it was just Yuhi and her, all those fears emerged from the surface.
Before she knew it she was in this state again..
Her entire body felt cold all over. She was trembling badly and she knew even without looking at a mirror how pale her face was. Despite the warmth from Yuhi's arms, she was having a hard time settling down.
"When Hino was there I didn't notice."
"Yeah."
"But when it was just us two, my wind kept wandering and I kept looking at your scars even when you gave me that kiss that drives me crazy."
Yuhi laughed softly. "A kiss that drives you crazy?"
Actually there were many of those. Each different kiss he gives her drives her crazy. But he doesn't have to know that. She maybe in a weak state now but she will not allow him to know that.
She cannot allow him to get a deep glimpse into her heart, that would be far too dangerous. Yuhi-san must understand that too and that is the reason why he does not pry, he is waiting until she is ready.
"I would like to give you more pleasant memories if I can. But both of us know how bad the situation is getting. Those people are becoming bolder and bolder with their actions. They won't stop."
"But do you really have to get so involved? Yuhi you almost died. Please rethink about whether you want to keep doing this." Sumire tried to maintain a calm expression but it was difficult.
Just the mere thought that she almost lost him sent shivers down her spine.
"You should also try to look at things from my perspective."
"I am-"
Yuhi shook his head and she bit her lip and averted her gaze.
"It's not just about you and me Yuhi. I don't know if you remember but back when we worked together in the Holy Knights you were very popular."
"Are you jealous again-"
Sumire raised her hand and cut him off.
"No, it has nothing to do with my jealousy. But I will admit that I was jealous back then."
"If you say it so seriously it is hard to tease you."
"This is what makes you such a boring guy." Sumire rolled her eyes. "Back then who was the one who was so oblivious to those girls' advances towards you? They really had the nerve though even though I was right there beside you."
Whenever she looked back on it, she hated how those girls just pretended that she wasn't there. Then again it was not like they were in a relationship. Even after she warmed up to him there was still times where she would treat him coldly. It is no wonder those girls behaved the way they did.𝒇𝘳ee𝚠𝘦𝚋n૦𝐯el coｍ
"Well of course I didn't notice. I was too busy stealing glances at you."
At those words she picked up something on the side table and hit him. Yuhi caught the small box and sighed.
"Isn't this my precious gift to you? Why are you tossing it carelessly."
"Your the one who keeps saying such stupid things."
"Hey you may think it is stupid. But those are my feelings for you."
Aaaahh he makes her so mad. Why is Yuhi so foolishly honest with her? It does not make any sense at all. She has a terrible personality and she has many issues. But this guy is madly in love with her to the point he would do anything for her.
"Back then you were not only popular with the girls but everyone else too. There was something about you that drew others towards you. You have the charisma and talent that a good leader requires. But even more than that, there was something else."
That something is the reason why she was worried for him.
"You influenced others with your behaviour."
A deep sigh passed Yuhi's lips.
"To be honest it doesn't suit me. But I can't dismiss those words your saying. This talk is reminding me of somebody and I really don't want to mention it."
"If I told you I used to think you and that person were similar, I am sure you would hate me right now."
"That won't ever happen. But similar huh? Do you truly think that?"
"Back then you understood him far better than he did, you were one step ahead of him when it came to solving cases. So when he did become a traitor officially, all those clues and hints you left for us helped us survive."
If Yuhi didn't make his dislike towards the man clear, then so many more people would be dead by now.
"That guy killed my family. It doesn't sit well with me being compared to him." Yuhi trailed off. "Do I really resemble him?"
Sumire briefly closed her eyes. The man in her memory, the one Yuhi regards as his biggest enemy is a ruthless psychopath. But that guy never did things without a reason. It is similar to Yuhi but also herself.
"You're not the only one though who predicted him."
Yuhi frowned. "No, you're definitely not the same."
"Perhaps, but the truth is there were times where I understood him better than you. So when everybody learned his true face I had a hard time for a while. They looked at me like I was some type of walking time bomb ready to explode."
There was a time where she faced even more stigma from her peers.
"Sumire-"
Sumire shook her head. 'Once again he will dismiss his fears just to comfort me. I can't allow him to spoil me like that forever. Besides he has his own inner demons to face, this is one of them. I want to help him overcome this.'
"Just now you asked me if you resembled him. The answer I have for you right now is I do not know."
He seemed baffled at her response and she continued. "I do not know because your way of living has changed. Even though you are involving yourself a lot more in the underworld matters , it is not the same as before. The position you are in now is far different than his. It was different before too but it was a lot closer."
"So-"
"So Yuhi-san I can conclude your question like this. Unless the day comes where you cut yourself off from the rest of the world leading to you abandoning everything you hold dear. Then you will never be in the same position as that guy."
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