Sometimes she wishes she would fall down a dark hole and never come back. If she could escape then maybe this pain would go away. But that is only her trying to run away from reality.
That is only her trying to escape from the nightmares and shadows that plague her every night.
One second she was talking to Shin about their next move.
The next second she is a mess, trembling and wishing she was anywhere but here.
The next second she has to stop herself from picking up her blade and hurting herself.
She is unable to breathe properly and she noticed beads of sweat falling from her face.
Why does this have to happen now of all times? She must have done something bad in her past life for this to occur.
If only Ru was still alive, he would know how to handle her. He was the only one who bothered dealing with a messed up person like her.
"Is there anything I can do?"
Yuhi.
Call Yuhi.
She needs Yuhi.
Aah, she is so hopeless, to think she is relying on another person like this. Who would have thought that she would trust somebody as much as she does Terashima Yuhi?
Ever since she was younger there is one thing she wanted more than anything. She still clearly remembers it, that small wish. But a person like her doesn't deserve something as good as that.
She deserves to fall into this hell and never come back.
There is nobody in this world who cares for her, nobody who will listen anymore. It is already too late to fix the damage. No matter what she does, nobody will listen.
She is all alone.
She was fine just a few moments ago, so why does she feel so messed up and terrible now? Ah, its no good like this, she really wants to -- her thoughts broke off when she suddenly felt someone pull her up.
She was hunched up on the sidewalk but somebody grabbed her arm.
It wasn't Shin.
There stood the last person she expected to see. A man with short red colored hair and azure-colored eyes. Her eyes widened alarmed, and she pulled her hand back.
"You are going to try and run from me in this situation? Sumire."
At that comment, Sumire kept her head down and she bit her lip.
"Atsuro."
Atsuro leaned forward and pulled her into his arms. "What's the matter?"
"Nothing."
"You sure?"
She can't talk to him about how she still feels so insecure and a mess. Her thoughts broke off when he gently patted her back.
"I haven't seen you in so long, I missed you Sumire."
If she were a normal girl then she would have acted cute about all this, it would make her heart flutter or something. But this isn't the case here.
"Look you can't just show up and expect me to do what you want."
"I haven't even said anything yet and your already on your guard. After I get you two out of here, have a meal with me. I will answer your questions then."
He grabbed her hands and started to kiss it. "I want you."
This person! Before she could say anything he continued to kiss, and suck her palm. She bit her lip and held back her voice. What is he trying to do?
She hastily pulls her hand back. "Give me a second gosh."
Atsuro allowed her to have her hand back. "First of all, what are you even doing here Atsuro?"
"I came for you."
Here was the thing. I used to have a crush on this person, or at least I thought so at the time.
He says he came here for her. But there is no way he would go all the way to Tokyo for her sake. A famous agency signed his band recently, Jupiter Records - one of the largest music companies in Japan. Their main branch is in Tokyo. That's right, he most likely came here because it benefits his band. Why would he come here for her?
"Shin, when did she become so unreasonable?"
Shin didn't say anything, he kept watching though.
Sumire took a deep breath. "Second, I'm dating Yuhi."
At that comment, Atsuro frowned. He rubbed the back of his neck and sighs. "Don't joke around. Yuhi is messing with you, he isn't serious."
"You don't know him."
"You will be surprised by how much I know."
What does he mean by that?
Atsuro however does not continue the conversation. He looked around the shop. "We shouldn't stay for long, there is dark energy everywhere."
Sumire looked away. She still felt terrible but after arguing with Atsuro she was no longer shaking.
He extended his hand out. "Come."
"I can walk alone."
"Suit yourself." He removed the pieces of wood from the door and opened it. The streets were clear and as dead as earlier. But when they got outside Sumire saw it, footsteps. Signs that a person no something was here.
Could it be the people from before?
So strange..
Shin patted her shoulder. "Are you okay?"
Sumire laughed awkwardly. "I still feel a bit strange. Um, could you contact Yuhi?"
She needs Yuhi to come not just for her sake but to keep Atsuro in line. Look how he took advantage of her just a few moments ago.
"I can't seem to get through his phone."
"I see."
Maybe he is already on his way here? But what is this bad feeling she is suddenly getting?
Shin looks over at Atsuro then back at her and sighs. "You don't have to mind him Sumire. He came back here because we got offered to do a major program."
"I already know. Atsuro isn't that sweet, he isn't Yuhi who would move the stars, sky, and earth for me."
"Is that you boasting?"
"Of course I need to boast. Yuhi is a good guy and he treats me very well."
But so was Sano, and look how that ended up. She understood that there are other guys out there, those who actually treat their partners well - those who are genuine. Not everybody is like Sano, Yuhi is doing his best to prove that to her too. That's why she also has to do her best. She needs to move on, she can't remain like this forever.
"Atsuro will make a mess of things for you two."
"I know." Sumire understood that since he first tried to contact her. But there is nobody capable of pulling her away from Terashima Yuhi. No matter who they are she would fight them.
Right now that is the one thing that she is sure of.