"Hubby." I feel Lauren holding my hand trying to make me calm.
"I am sick, I am mentally sick. I am a monster in bed, wife. I cannot fulfill my duty as a husband in bed. I will never be a good partner in bed."
"I am willing to take the risk, hubby."
"Wife."
"Now that I understand everything. I am still to give you my body, hubby. Do whatever you want to do. I don't care if I get hurt. You deserve happiness, too, and understanding."
"Wife."
"I still believe that you are still in control, hubby."
"No. I can't. I can't, wife. I am not me when my arousal awake."
"You can, I believe you can. Please hubby. Let me help you. Let me return the favor to you for helping me to get out of my agency. At least here, this way I can make up for all your goodness."
"Lauren, you already did a lot of me."
"No, not yet."
"But---"
"Ok, let's just try. Please." I was surprised when she suddenly knelt down. "Please, hubby."
"But----"
"Just now." I sighed and nodded and let her have fun.
She removed my pants and I let her do it. My genitals were immediately exposed but there was no sign that my desire was awake. I let her play with it until she managed to wake it up. A normal body responds but my brain prevents me from liking what she is doing.
She followed what I had taught her before on how to satisfy a man. Lauren did it well but I stopped myself from getting carried away by her. She sucks the head, licks the body, my balls. Her tongue explores my hardness.
My grip on the bed tightened as Lauren swallowed my full size. I heard her gag but she didn't care. She captured my weakness as she swallowed my manhood whole as her tongue moved along the bottom vein.
She sucks my shaft. But the craziest thing was when she tightened her mouth to choke the tip of my penis while my head was sliding into her throat. Every man's weakness. A strange sensation enveloped me.
She moves her head up and down. She casually inserted my penis into her mouth. The head tingles when it slides along with the suction. I don't want to get hit but I just know I'm going to get hit.
"I want inside of you," I said. I have to stop her because I know that in a little while I will lose my sanity. As long as I can, as long as I can control myself, she should be finished.
"Ok."
She lay on the bed and removed her dress. I kiss her on the neck down to her chest. Her desire needs to be awakened so that when I enter her, she can come out quickly.
While sucking and massaging her breast I play with her slit. She's already wet so I know she'll finish quickly later. A little more and when I saw her carrying it, I stopped.
"I'll go in."
"I'm ready."
"It will be painful. But remember what I said before?"
"That I need to relax. Because if I get scared or nervous or even get excited my walls will get tighten that makes my opening close."
"Yes."
"Okay, hubby." I pointed my shaft in her slit. I took her hand and put it on my shoulder. Although, I hate when someone touches me.
"You can scratch me if you feel pain. But never caresses me. Ready?"
"Yeah."
"Tell me if it hurts." She nods. But before going in, I kiss her on the forehead. I slowly buried my shaft. I saw her close her eyes but she didn't seem that hurt. I didn't stop and I just continued to enter fully. "I'm fully in. How do I feel?"
"Painful, but it's ok. It's not that painful."
"Should I move?" She gave me a nod.
I moved slowly. I must control myself as much as possible. I'm not stupid to not feel good and Lauren is different from everyone I've had sex with. My spirit is awake only with her while inside. I was only conscious of her and in my right mind while going in and out of her. I feel more of the real feeling of sex because my brain is clear----but I control it. Because when I get hit hard, I will lose myself again and I will hurt him.
"Ah, it feels so good, hubby. Shit, it tickles." I want to make her stop what she's saying because it makes me hard. Even more, I can see her face that is crazy with happiness.
"Hubby, shit, ah!" Her body is turning everywhere. She is very naughty and her nails are digging into my arm. In addition, her face awakens desire.
I keep thrusting. But while I was going up and down. While my pet was going in and out, I was tickled little by little. I know if it takes a little longer I will give up completely.
I suck her nipples. My other hand played her bean button. She needs to be happy to finish before me.
"Yes hubby, harder, hubby. Yes, it feels so good."
Little did I know she would make it. Her beans are already swollen so I know she's close. I push my shaft hard. Deep and emphatic that made her scream.
"Oh God, fuck." But I guess I did the wrong thing because little by little my vision got darker and I could hear her voice. "Oh hubby, the shit. It tickles me, ah!"
'No! it can't be, it's not possible.'
"Fuck! I'm going to come, I'm going to come, shit! Cumming." Her pussy tightens my shaft and I know it's because of her erection.
"Damn!" I quickly removed my manhood and stood up before my vision went dark. I go inside the bathroom. I don't want to see her and I might dump on her what I've been holding back.
I do this when I don't want women. I can release my lust at the same time I am sober. I can control it when I don't see a girl around. I move my hand up and down, stroking my shaft. Imagining I am fucking my wife.
"Oh shit." I sped up and down until my juice exploded in the toilet. "Fuck!" It came out one after another which made my knees weak. When I'm done, I'm just leaning against the wall while I'm catching my breath bent over.
I felt someone put a robe on my back and hug me from behind but I didn't move.
"I'm sorry." I heard Lauren sob so I looked at her. She was already dressed so I fixed the clothes she put on me.
"What are you saying?" I faced her.
"Sorry if I was selfish, hubby. I just want to help you."
"No, I'm good. I am good." I lifted her face and wiped the tears. "Stop crying wife."
"I won't stop until you get better, hubby. I promised." I pull her closer to me and kiss her head.
"Thanks." But she keeps crying so I just calm her down.