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“You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it
And all of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending, oh, oh, oh, oh
So much for my happy ending, oh, oh, oh, oh "
You are all I want, Dwyne. You're the only one I love so much! I thought we were for each other, but I was wrong. Because in just the very beginning... you're pretending. It was as if all our happy memories were suddenly started fading, just because of this. Because I found out that you really don't love me.
“You’ve got your dumb friends
I know what they say, they tell you I'm difficult, but so are they
But they don't know me, do they even know you
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be”
I'm a challenge for them, so they want to drag me down and despise me. Because as for as you all know I was called the 'Undefeatable' or whatsoever I don't actually care about it tho.
“You were everything, everything that I wanted
We we're meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories so closed to me, just fade away,
All this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending”
Maybe I hope you will be my happy ending. But, I'm very assuming, you're too much for me. I don't deserve you. You're too kind that I know that you're too much to be mine. Yeah, despite of this, I know he's a kind man. I can feel it.
“It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you care
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall.
And letting me know we were done”
Maybe he was laughing at me as he saw me falling for him just as they planned. As he saw me falling to their trap. As he saw me letting my guard down. As he witness me dancing at the palm of their hands. As he witness how actually weak I am. I am guilty because I didn't said anything about my past to him. But it's still a good thing that...he know nothing about it. It will just made him feel even more guilty to what he'd did.
“He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be
Supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so closed to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending”
I regret going here in the first place. I wish I can turn back the time where I saw him behind me. I wish I talked to him right after I saw him, I wish I didn't eavesdropped and need to know this painful truth. You can call me stupid or anything but I don't care. I just really need him right now.
But why did I have to learn the truth now? Why at this time? At this rate? I'm too exhausted. My body felt heavy, so is my heart. My mind's in haze. I felt like collapsing. I felt like giving up. I can't handle this all at once, but I must to.
“You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be
Supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so closed to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending
Oh, oh, oh, oh (oh, oh)
So much for my happy ending
Oh, oh, oh, oh (oh, oh)
So much for my happy ending
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh”
I finished the song. I returned the microphone to the vocalist of their band. I think their band was called ‘The Jinx’
Then I head to the stage stairs without saying anything. I first looked at Dwyne which I know is wondering why did I sang...especially in this place after all that issue. He might be even thinking that I'm just having fun doing nothing about the issue.
When our eyes met I looked at him hollowly and smirk. I can suppress my feelings if I want to and now is the perfect time.
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