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I remembered when I sing that song, I was totally broken. I felt so...numb, empty, shallow. And I wish my heart would be unbroken by now. Cause I am still BROKEN inside. Not in a romantic relationship, but I'm broken. Broken because of what people are doing with me.
I said in that song, that they would never let me down cause I'm titanium. And I did that. Everyone who tried to messed up with me didn't succeed.
But until when I can fight? Until when I will fight?
Who or what am I fighting for, really? I can't remember whom or what I am fighting for.
I'm starting to lose my strength. I'm starting to lose hope.
I wished to be unbroken. But until now, nothing happened. I am still broken. Yes, I already had true friends who are always there by my side. But ... it's not enough. It's not enough ... but there's something or someone who can maybe fix my broken self?
'It's either Dwyne. But maybe the one who can truly fix me is my... parents. '
Because they're the who literally broke me into pieces, so maybe they willa also be the one who can fix me. My parents, and the love of the people around me...
Yeah, maybe that will definitely fix me — no not just fix me, but complete me.
But, can they accept me now? Or still not? Of course not yet, I didn't became a lawyer like what they wanted me to be—what they wanted us to be. If I am faking with my feelings, I will say I don't care if they can't accept me. But the truth is... I care.
I looked at the door when it suddenly creaked. I looked at who it was.
And I let out a sigh of relief when it was just Xiera.
He walked over to her bed and sat there.
“Dev does...does something's bothering you?” she asked me. You can clearly see the concern on her face. I just raised an eyebrow at him.
“There's not. What something could be bother me?” I lied. I'm always like this, I lied, I lied, and I lied again and again. I just can't...let people know what my real feelings is. I just can't...bare people seeing me at my worst pace. I don't want to see the pity on their eyes. I don't want their sympathy!
“Is that so? But why does it seem like there is?” she suspected. I rolled why eyes upon her.
“You could've been ask me, if you don't believe either,”
She sighed. “Okay, if you don't want to say it's okay. I understand. Just go down there and eat. Even if you say you're full, I know you're hungry too. So go ahead, go down” she insisted.
“Tss, okay! Fine! Go back and just wait for me therr” I said.
Yes I'm actually hungry, but I'm really lazy to get up because I remembered that shit of a damn past again. But...I feel like those things happened only yesterday. I hate bringing back my past. I become sensitive when it comes to that.
But I told Agatha allabout it, and I felt a little better then. I can't tell Xiera everything I felt when I was still in the mansion! Because I know she will just fely guilty. I know her so I know she will be guilty even if she is innocent and it's my own decisiom I've made.
Why would she be guilty? It's for me to know and for you to find out.
“Okay! You go down there immediately. I don't want my twin to be starve!” Xiera said.
“Tsk! Okay! You go there now!” I pretended to be annoyed.
She looked at me first before finally leaving.
One of the things I like about Xiera is that she doesn’t really want me to starve. Whenever I don't want to eat, she really forces me to eat because she doesn't want me to go hungry, because I might get sick. OA it is, right?
I went to the C.R and there I washed myself, I also brushed my teeth.
Then I put on a jacket, because I'm sure it's cold there. I also brought another one for Xiera. Yes only to Xiera, THEY are not included. Why, take care of them! Get their own jackets!
I left our room and go down. Then after a few, I saw them from not far away, surrounding the bonfire. Andrew and Donald are grilling somethin'. I'm sure they just borrowed it here. They didn't bring that before.
When I approached them, I immediately handed Xiera the jacket I was carrying and sat down next to her.
“Yosh! Xy has finally arrived!”-Donald. I just rolled my eyes at him.
Maybe they’re done eating dinner, so they’re already grilling.
I take a box containing rice and the dish, and started eating.
Soon after I finished eating, I put the box I used for eating in the trash.
One by one they gave us what they grilled. I took Isaw. Because I also love that food!
They started talking about things again, I just listened to them, and didn't talk. And I noticed that Axry just kept drinking the San Mig Lights in a can he was holding, while stunned.
Maybe he's still a bit out-of-place, because he doesn't know them either. I just dragged him all out here
“Eh how 'bout you, Era? Tell me about your childhood!” Rave said.
Xiera looked at me as if asking.
I shook.
“I'm sorry guys, Dev doesn't even want me to tell you, sorry”
They just nodded. It's good that they didn't forced Xiera. Or I'll beat em in the face.
“Let's play guys! Dare or Consequence!” Andrew suggested.
We raised an eyebrow at him.
'Dare or Consequence? That's new to my ear. Often as I hear it is truth or dare. '
What's got into Andrew's mind? Is he really high?
“Dare or Consequence? What's that?” Hilary asked.
The four troops looked at each other and grinned at the same time.
Oh, no! I think what they think is outrageous!
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