I first read Precious.
... ICE COLD FACTS 'BOUT U!
Name: Precious Zuckerberg
Nickname: Precious, Iou (Ayu)
Address: Debbuezil Subdivision
Cellphone no: +639658904593
Birthday: February 12, ****
School: BCGHS
Ambition: to become a doctor
FAVORITES .......
Hobbies: watching movies, make-overs
Music: Bury A Friend, When The Party's Over
Singers: Billie Eilish
Book: Shakespeare Books
Sports: volleyball
Bestfriends: Arriane, Deity, and Xyna
Yes, she loves Billie Eilish and she's very good at playing volleyball.
The next thing I read was Arriane's.
... ICE COLD FACTS 'BOUT U!
Name: Arriane Lock Villaser
Nickname: Anne, Arriane, Arry, Lock, AL
Address: Automotoville Subdivision
Cellphone no: +639684632190
Birthday: June 07, ****
School: BCGHS
Ambition: to become an accountant
FAVORITES .......
Hobbies: make fun with friends, eating
Music: Stone Cold, Skyscraper, I Really Don't Care, Roar
Singers: Demi Lovato, Katy Perry
Book: Dictionary
Sports: badminton
Bestfriends: Deity, Precious, and Xyna
If Precious's good at volleyball, Arriane's at badminton. I really wonder how we became friends when we had different hobbies, sport and likes.
We also have different tastes in music. I love rock, so I like Avril Lavigne than Demi Lovato, Katy Perry, Billie Eilish, and many more. It's just that, I really inlove with her song. Even if it is— you know a little old now, it was so beautiful. So wonderful! The tone, the meaning of the song, and the singer itself.
I flipped to the next page again, and read Deity's.
... ICE COLD FACTS 'BOUT U!
Name: Deity Heda Villaser
Nickname: Dei, Hed,
Address: Automotoville Subdivision
Cellphone no: +639596349085
Birthday: November 26, ****
School: BCGHS
Ambition: to become a fashion designer
FAVORITES .......
Hobbies: make-overs, shopping
Music: When I Look At You, All of me, etc
Singers: Random
Book: none
Sports: gymnast
Bestfriends: Precious, Arriane and Xyna
Yeah, it was real. Deity's a gymnast. But I don't really like gymnast. I don't know why, but I really love sweaty sports. Like boxing, track 'n field, and basketball. Maybe I'm just that weird. I like man's sport, than the usual female sports. I mean yeah, everyone can play badminton and volleyball, what I wanted to say is, girls more likely choose badminton and volleyball than the other sports.
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While heading my way to the garden where the four of us always meet, I'm holding a four bottles of milktea. I just want to treat them today, that's all.
It's been two weeks since Precious, Deity, and Arriane wrote their informations on my autograph notebook. I took care of it very much, because it will be one of our good memories with each others.
After a while, I saw them sitting near the bench. They were talking 'bout something, but I know that something is way too serious. Serious enough for them not to even smile or laugh at each other.
I decided to walk towards their direction, but suddenly stopped when I heard Deity mentioned my name. It made me look at her and I was shocked when I saw her grinning evilly like she just plotted something.
'Are they talking 'bout me? W-Why?'
I slowly approached them.
I was about to call them when I heard Anne also mentioned my name, so I stopped for the second time.
Instead of calling them, I hid in one of the trees to hear what they were talking about.
“Deity, can't we just stop already? I think this is already too much. I feel guilty. Also, my conscience's killing me. You know, she's very kind to us” Precious said while looking at Deity and Arriane sadly.
“What are you saying, Precious? Don't feel any remorse to her! Did you forget that her parents were the one who made our lives miserable?!” Precious was silent at what Deity said.
My body started to weaken because of what I've heard.
“S-Sorry. So, what are we going to do with our plan? W-We're going to be criminals here, Deity. What if she can't stand it, she might die!”
“Tsah! No one will find it out if we acted like it was an accident tomorrow in our physical education class. No one will get suspicious of us, afterall they know we are that Xyna-bitch's friends. But we're actually not, who wants to be friend with a noob like her.” she said with a smirked.
The tears that I had been holding back for a while, started falling.
I even covered my two hands to keep from sobbing.
“By the way, where's that bitch! She keep us waiting for her again, as if she's a very important person, but the truth is she's just nothing but a trash, like her parents” Arriane said.
‘T-The one I considered as my f-friends, i-is just using m-me to get r-revenge on m-my parents. I thought they were real. I thought...But I'm... wrong. I'm wrong again!'
I'm enough of this.
I leeave the garden and went straight to the gate.
There are no guards stand by, maybe they are going around to scan the whole school. I hurried out of the gate and go to an abandoned park, then there I let out my tears freely. I let out the pain I always kept inside my heart.
I released it all now. My weakness. My pain. My anger. I released it all.
Because starting tomorrow, the Xyna Alegre they've know will be...gone.
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I was awoken by the sound of the gate opening and closing. Maybe it's Agatha.
I remembered my dream again. What a bad dream.
It would have been okay if it was just a dream, but no. It is one of my memory. Very bad memory. My experience on friending someone without knowing their whole and true self—what their motives are. A memory I have long forgotten. But, now just because of a shit autograph notebook, that memory turns back on me.
Deity, Arriane, and Precious. I still remember their names. They were my very first friends. Yeah, first. Because of my desperation to have friends like others, I be friend with them without knowing what their motives are, that time. I was so stupid. I should've atleast felt a little suspicious when Precious said she wanted to be friend with me. No one wants to be friend with me because they say I'm weird and not as beautiful as my twin, they also said I looked cheap. So I should've known. I SHOULD'VE KNOWN!
I was only at the 7th grade that time— the last month of our classes, when I know that they're just using me and even plotted to harm me. I treat them as my bestfriends, but .... they betrayed me.
So after that, I didn't be friends with others. Because I know others would might just use me too. Once is enough for me.
I don't want to repeat the mistakes I made before. That's why, I changed. I changed for the good and for the better. I started wearing the mask. And now, even though I want to remove that mask I wear ever since, I already don't know how. There's this...fear in my heart that if I remove my mask once again, people will just use me again. Use it against me.
Mask became a part of my life. Without it, I won't survive.
I became stronger, fierce, and brave. I don't let others just drag me down. No one, literally, no one will ever just drag me down. I will trust no one but Agatha and my twin, Xiera atleast for now. Dwyne must prove himself to me.
I got up from my bed and then went to the bathroom to clean myself.
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