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I felt my stomach grumbling so I told him to eat first. And he luckily agreed, afterall it's already 6:54 o'clock in the evening.
We decided to eat in Chick-fil-A, this time. I have considerations you know. Afterall, I have my gratitude on him. He exchange all of the tickets we collected to that Harry Potter Collections. He didn't evenget anything.
We ate quietly until we finished, not even a single word was said. Wow, so Dwyne can also be this quiet, huh? Why won't he do it everyday, so that he won't irritate me big time.
After we fixed all our things we left the restaurant. And walked still quietly to the parking lot.
It's strange. He seems to be thinking deeply. What will it might be? He's been like this ever since I finished singing. Don't tell me he still can't get over it?
“Go ahead! See you again tomorrow on the set. Remember, don't use drugs, okay? So that you won't get high again tomorrow” I mocked. He chuckled.
“All right.” Ooh! That's new. He didn't complain about my mockery.
He smiled at me before getting into his car and leave. I did the same.
What could be his problem?
I just shook my head and turn my attention on the road.
When I got home I immediately changed my clothes to pajamas and went to bed and sleep.
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Dwyne
I will NEVER forget the look on her eyes while she was singing. Her face were emotionless, but at that time, her eyes seemed to want to say a lot—there has emotions. It's not a lot though because I think that she's fighting with her emotions not to come out.
I was also confused, why did she sang ‘Silent Scream’. Of all millions of songs that she can sing, why did she picked Silent Scream? Unless, it's her favorite.
Based on the song lines like: 'but I'm causing you so much frustration' and 'but I'm not that type of child.' shows that the meaning of the song is about a child who is being trapped on her parents expectations. If someone sang it, it will look like that that song is for its parents.
If I was right about my hunch that she sang to show how does she feel about her parents, then the question is why? Why does she sang that. Does she have a hidden grudge towards her parents?
Ever since she became an actress, she never mentioned anything about her parents and family. And that makes the people—including me to be so curious at the same time confused about it. Will these explains why is she hiding it? But who are they? Who are her parents?
Reporters and paparazzis are trying to ask her about her parents. But she's always avoiding and changing the topic.
If I was right, she was 16 when she was first saw at a commercial. Until one of the modeling agencies ask her yo became their model, and she agreed. And later on after she keep rising up, she became an actress then a certified pro boxer. It is also undeniable that she is good at acting so she has won many awards.
I pick up my laptop and search 'Xyna Devon Alegre's parents'. But like I was expecting there's no result.
It says: The famous actress and boxer Xyna Alegre's parents are still undefined/unknown.
I let out a deep sigh and close my laptop.
Why does she felt that way towards her own parents? What did they do to her, for her to hate them? Why doesn't she even mention them in public? Was she ashamed of them? Xyna Devon Alegre, who really are you?
I still have many questions in my mind but I do not want to interfere in her personal life, because if I dig in more, she will be angry with me and then probably she will end our friendship immediately.
Xyna is the type of person where she don't anyone to meddle with her own personal life.
I'll just wait for her to share her personal life with me
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Xyna
Like my daily routine, I immediately brushed my teeth and changed my pajama into a sport's bra and jogging pants.
I will not go to the gym today to practice boxing.
I will going to jog today. Afterall, I missed jogging, it's been a long time since I last jogged so I decided to do it now.
When I finished breakfast I went out of the house and started jogging in our village, while the earpods were inserted in both of my ears while a beautiful and relatable song was currently playing.
Now playing: Am I Supposed To Apologized by Maria Mena
“I wrote a song a journal give to the world
Told the story of when I was just a girl
I sought understanding clarity in truth
By baring all the wounds inflicted on my youth”
Director Benjamin announced that we'll start our shooting at 10:00 o'clock, and will be go straight at Diamond Skyle University. But since, it's only 8:00 A.M I decided to take a jog at our village.
“But I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand....
Am I supposed to apologized
I supposed to apologized
I supposed to apologized
I supposed to apologized....”
This is also one of my favorite songs. Aside from liking the beauty of the sound and its rhythm, I also like the meaning of it. Very relatable. It's about-ehem, bad childhood. I can relate to this song 'cause I have a super hella BAD childhood.
I know in this world, I'm not just the only one who experienced a one hella bad childhood. But, I can't just accept the fact that they're a famous and respected lawyers, but they treat their daughter as if it is an animal who mustn't born in this world at the first place, tsk! Like a mistaken child. Damn it! So fucking unfair side of this world!
Make me believe that hell is empty because the real demons are actually here, maybe it's one of the person you are talking with.
Everything I say about my PARENTS is obviously bad, isn't it?
Well, yes they are extremely evil they deserve to be called the king and queen of hell. Not that they kill people. Don't get me wrong. But, they made my life like a living hell. They are very unfair towards me and my twin. Yes I have a twin, we are so very close like other ordinary twins. She's very important to me. Important than my parents.
Even though she is their favorite, this doesn't stop us from being close to each other.
Who is she?
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